Evening
Did I get to sleep last night? course not >3>
Honestly it is so unfair!!!!
I took Ozwald home and went for a bath at 8pm and then played pokemon by myself in bed til 9:30pm Jack came to bed at 9:45pm and I stayed up watching him play pokemon as I couldnt sleep
too much anxiety about school ><
he turned his switch off at midnight and asked if I was ok, I replied "yeah....."
he fell asleep 0.0 as fast as that!!! He was so fast falling asleep
I was so envious....
I got up and stayed up til 2am, I had some fruit loaf as I was so hungry by this point, it has been 8 hours since I had last eaten I guess
I came to bed after taking more pain killers and I slept til my alarm of 6:15pm T^T 4 hours sleep for a monday morning
I defrosted the snow off my car, there was still snow everywhere....
I didnt want to go to school, just didnt want to go really
I got there and got on with stuff, feeling like my eyes were being pulled down
when I looked in the mirror in the toilets I looked pale and had dark rings under my eyes
I looked awful
I thought about going home, but didnt want to leave Jack to find his own way home. So I decided I would literally do the bare minimum today
I refuse to cry this week
so I ether stayed at school and hardly do much (which is so boring and makes my day so long) or I go home and get more done but only digital work. If I worked myself hard at school I knew it would quite literally end in tears
So I have hardly done much at school. Its so dull and it feels like such a waste of life
we came home and theres still snow in the garden!
I had a cup of tea but didnt want fruit loaf really, I had some chocolate instead. We brought Oz in straight away so he's enjoying the living room bless him.
I made dinner, I had left over chips I had made yesterday, 2 sausage and an egg. I made Jack an amazing dinner, he had a mini baguette and on it I put 4 sausages, 2 hash browns, 2 eggs and wrapped it in tin foil so it was easier for him to eat it. He couldnt believe his luck he was well happy with that as he thought he was just getting a sausage cob XD love making food he likes
I am just with Oz now, I have got to do some form of exercise and have a bath and stuff. Jack is gonna go game soon now I have got him fed and washed.
I plan on playing pokemon by myself in bed tho :)
tomorrow is school, not much on practical wise so I may be ok
I just need sleep. I feel so drained like I have done all day.
Sometimes my thoughts are quite bad in the middle of the night but its just cus im fed up of it all
