I could not sleep last night
to say my pain had been good all day it suddenly changed in bed
just landed on me like a tonne of bricks
i felt like death i hurt so very much and didnt know what to do with myself
was close to 1am by time i slept
Id watched another episode of Killing Eve its good ^^
This morning I woke up at 8am
i got up at 8:10am
wanted more sleep but it wasnt to be
once i wake up its rare i get off again
so i had a pajama morning XD
I cleaned my room in my pajamas so its all nice a fresh for when i come home
i sneezed so much but it wasnt that dusty
then i did get dressed because my parents went out so i decided to play just dance
i was on it a while enjoying myself
tried new songs and some are hard but i just enjoyed it ^^
then I went for a walk which was a little over an hour long
it was such a lovely day and exercise has been helping me tune off to life
i always walk with my ipod on
came back had lunch
then i went on my laptop for a bit
i went out to Oz as there was a helicopter circling round the neighbourhood and he looked a lil spooked by the noise of it all. So i bent down talked to him, stroked him then picked him up
at that point a neighbour started up their lawn mower and i think that combine with the helicopter was Oz's breaking point.
He went mad
honestly he went mental in my hands i was trying to hold on to him best i could as we were on wooden flooring outside i didnt want to drop him from standing height cus i didnt want him to break a bone or hurt himself
all you could see was fur flying everywhere
i could feel him scratching me but i didnt care
i managed to semi bend over and lost my grip on him
but at least it wasnt from full height
and hopped right off into the shed so he was ok
me on the other hand....
left arm
right arm
left thigh (i have more closer to my private areas so didnt photograph them) it went through clothing can you believe that!?
i have 3 scratches on my left boob and 3 scratches on my right boob
all this 2 days before im set to wear a bikini.....
my luck huh
mum says it looks like ive tried to commit suicide
they didnt hurt really cus im cool with pain and theres worse pain
its more the bruising that hurts now if anything
im gonna look a state in a bikini now
my skin is so pale so red stands out
all well
main thing is that Oz is ok, i wasnt bothered what happened to me
i did a bit of doodling
then had a brew in the silence~
i did a bit of dancing
went to have a shower and remembered to bleach my eye brows so i have blond eye brows now as i despise my dark brown ones!
cuts didnt sting in the shower luckily
had dinner then sorted out my clothes to take away with me
as i feel that could be the most time consuming thing to pack
so i got that out the way
feels weird not taking any warm clothing
usually im packing warm stuff!
id put 2lbs on today
which sent my anorexic thoughts into over drive
but i have eaten well today
so tomorrow if i weigh myself i will probably be 4lbs more
despite all the exercise i do
tomorrow
tomorrow i have a busier day lined up as i want to be occupied so i dont go mental
im hitching a ride to the city centre off my brother cus i need to pop into the council house for a minute to collect my council card then he's bringing me home
im then taking that and my qualifications to my new school as thats on my mind
then im coming home to pack
in the evening im going running club
gotta tire myself out somehow cus i'll be sat on my arse all day tuesday
2 sleeps to go 0.0
