Evening
I went over to Jack's around 8pm last night
he had been out drinking - heavily - the night before so I wasnt in a rush to head over
as i knew he wouldnt be in a good way XD
When i saw him, he was really dark under the eyes and looked rough
he had been up til 5am, drunk half a bottle of vodka, few gins, few ciders
and hes hasnt been drinking for months
think it hit him quite hard
he also did something very very stupid which he told me not to 'freak out' about before he told me
basically in his drunken state he decided to try and climb his balcony from the pavement
i cant even touch his balcony from the pavement and hes not that much taller than me
so it was just stupid
and i could tell he must have been incredibly drunk to try this as its not safe and goes against his very nature to do unsafe acts
he had tried, failed, and rolled onto the pavement in his shorts and t-shirt
so he grazed his hands and got deep grazes on his knee caps that are now starting to bruise also
i was not impressed and didnt shout at him or anything but i did say once he lifted his shorts up to show the evidence
"ok jack and now what if i had done that?"
he said "yeah....i wouldnt have been very happy. probably how youre feeling now"
i said "we're suppose to moving out soon, what would have happened if you had broke your leg? you wouldnt be much help to me would you"
he said "i know, yeah youre right. it was stupid. i know"
i thought 'im so having this' XD
"and what would have happened if you had hit your head and ended up in hospital and i had found out you were in hospital?"
he hugged me and apologised for like the thousandth time
in all honesty i wasnt mad, i just thought he'd been an idiot and was glad he was alright
theo came in with his work friend and we sat talking for a bit
then he left and i went on jack's bed
did my tens machine and just rested really
took me til about midnight to actually sleep cus i was struggling to get comfy but once i was actually asleep i did sleep through til 8:30am
i got jack up which was a real effort XD
today marks our 18 month anniversary - feels so much longer 0.0
we had breakfast which was cereal and i managed it with my dodgey jaw
i had a bath, and my god was it a hot bath, my skin glew pink~~~~
i felt dizzy in the bath and my heart felt like it was pounding out my chest
but the pain of literally cooking my skin was a welcome change to my usual pain
psychotic i know, as i was essentially poaching my skin XD
i didnt feel good so knew i should get out, i shouted jack cus he told me to get him if im dizzy in the bath so i dont faint when getting out (he worries too much)
but he had the fan on in the bedroom so he couldnt hear me
so i got out slowly but my god my vision was blurring so i quickly made it into the bedroom and collapsed on the bed jack was like "you ok!? whats up?" i said "hot jack and very dizzy"
he said "you should have said"
i said "i shouted but you couldnt hear"
he looked so sad and guilty XD
we went round the shops as its his younger sister's 15th birthday today
and jack being jack, forgot
so once again i was helping him get bday presents
i know she loves make-up and beauty and korean stuff
so i told him TK MAXX usually has korean face sheets in
we managed to get korean face sheets, lip masks, and shoulder massage pad things
i think she will really like those presents
i was dead happy as we found a glass pumpkin in there and we've brought it for the kitchen windowsil for the bungalow, i think its beautiful but then i do have a fetish for pumpkins
halloween stuff is starting to come in and i LOVE it ^^
we came back and had soup which i was grateful of- needs very little chewing XD
after lunch we sorted out surveyors
jack gave them all the details and paid almost £500 for it all ><
he insisted tho as ive been paying for the stuff for the house lately
then we sorted out jacks wardrobe well his clothes really as so many are from his uni days - 10 years ago, and so are faded, rough, have holes in
and it annoys me -____- dresses likes a 40 year old man - his friends words not mine XD
so we threw out 2 bin liners full of clothes and a big carrier bag of underwear
he has been buying clothes since hes been with me so he could afford to throw some away
its all less to pack up and unpack when he does move
i know i have stuff to sort out
he says he has other stuff to sort out
he treated me to ice cream which was cookies and cream flavour
it was sooo good but made me cold
i came home cus i have to cus of Ozwald
got to keep him happy
also its raining today so he cant play out
my god actual rain!
hopefully tonight it will be easier to sleep
think im seeing jack on tuesday next
we're hoping to make a joint bank account
tomorrow probably exercise
i have a craft idea in mind but unsure if i have the stuff to actually do it
