Evening
Once again I get anxious at night, lay in bed thinking about school. Then antidepressants kick in and I dont feel much of anything and so I fall asleep then
I woke up at my alarm at 6am and got up to do my morning yoga
I felt quite sicky anxious going to school
the morning was one long energyless slog
did not realise I had dropped off to sleep reading my body book.....woops ^^;
Jack said no one saw -_____- he shouldnt allow me to conk out!!
I got all my jobs done tho what Jack asked of me
Couldnt wait to leave tho, I had had enough
I got home and had lunch with Ozwald
then I went to bed for almost 90 mins
did I feel better for it? nope T^T how unfair is that!?
what a waste of time >.>
but I had promised Jack that would actually relax today so I guess it was relaxing
I got up and rang my mum as she would have liked to have seen me but told me to tell her how I felt, so I rang her and said I was knackered. We spoke for half hour which was easier on me than having her over for 2 hours.
I then did a bit of painting and Jack came home
I had tea and fruit loaf as I have actually been hungry today but I worry about being greedy. Jack says im not greedy im hungry and it must be draining being tired and anxious all the time.
We decided as it was no long pouring with rain that we would go for a walk! so we went for a walk before dinner which I really enjoyed actually
we came back and did dinner. Ended up literally cutting and chopping for an hour as I had sausage pasta to cook and stew to prep for the morning. It was never ending!
I had a shower whilst Jack cleared up then he had a shower after me. It was like 7:15pm and we had both finished our chores for the day! so that was a good feeling. I sat and painted. Got all the colour on and it just needs outlining now. It does look better actually, still not holding out an awful lot for it tho!
I was with Ozwald, we gave each other lots of fuss
now just waiting for Jack to come off his new game with theo >.> knew he would get carried away on his first play of it
tomorrow
school >< kinda dont wanna go, all I wanted to do today was sleep. But hopefully tomorrow will be better. It was last wednesday I got to 9:30am and cracked hopefully it will not be a repeat of last week
