Not in a good mood
I slept not too bad i guess compared to some nights
mum woke me up at 8:30am for the pets as it was far too wet for them to play out
so i had the piggies on my knee til 9:30am then Oz came into my room
he was so giddy with excitement that sometimes he hopped up on the spot and would
bash into things like the wall and bin XD
I took him home at 10:30am
I sat at my desk designing my Fairy Kei hoodie
I have got the final design
then I went through all my stuff and I have all the materials to make it
i just got to actually make it
i did some research on fairy kei DIYs see what i could find
nothing special came to mind
but i ordered some amazing sparkly fabric for the wings :D
I had a rest on my bed i managed to find a new book to read
on my kindle as reading has become a chore lately but i think i will get back
into it soon enough
lately a lot of stuff feels like a chore!
After lunch I went over to adam's house for a couple of hours
we had a brew and he brought me a pikachu t-shirt!! he didnt have to ><
he brought a load of pokemon card packets so we went through them
there was some cute ones i would like to have drawn but hey
Then he took me into his room
he cuddled me on his bed
i felt kinda bad as i know he wanted more than a cuddle but i just wasnt arsed
i just have zero sex drive i never have had a drive to be honest and i do often wonder
what it must feel like to have one.
i try my best to join in i guess but it doesnt do a lot for me
but i cant always deny him of stuff cus its not fair on him that im this way
he does so well to put up with me --____--
I left and came home
my mood was changing i could feel it
i was getting hot and bothered and ended up showering at 5pm which is early for me
i thought it would cool me down and in doing so cool my head down
but no such luck!
i felt really frustrated and annoyed but at what i have no idea!
Yoga was really good but the whole time i still felt peeved
i felt like i could easily have had a go at someone but kept it in thank god
Came home and i cooked me and mum pasta
then just with Oz really
I spent ages sifting through my wardrobe on what to wear tomorrow for school
as it's non-uniform day - a day i normally love
but in all honesty i cant be bothered with it i really cant
im going in t-shirt and jeans and thats not me at all!!
but i cant be bothered to look pretty or cute or cool
i just want to blend in and be over looked
After 7 weeks from my original phone call for help from 'lets talk'
i got a phonecall at adam's saying that i could have a one to one appt!
finally!!
so thats next week which will make it 8 weeks
really looking forward to that yeesh
my car is dying
i had on 25th passed my driving test 8 years ago
on 28th i had my car for 3 years
its 13 years old
dad wants rid as its slowly dying
my nails from a another week
