Konbanwa
I slept well but did take me til midnight to settle down. I woke up at 8am but left jack in bed for a little while. We did get up and ready tho and picked Oz up from mum's at 9:30am as we both missed him. We got back and I did some chores, whilst waiting for Mia to turn up.
She came at 10:30am with my dad's birthday card I ordered off her etsy account - lazymonkeydesigns
Looks really good I am pleased with it and said I would leave her a review
I enjoyed my walk but from the moment I woke up I have been pale and tired today, just dead energyless and my heart feels like it is working harder to keep up with the average day. So I was quite shattered when I came in.
I had lunch then jack looked at me and said "why dont you have a nap" thats jack's way of saying 'you look like death and need rest' however I still had many things I wished to do. He talked me through things like things that dont NEED to be done today. And hes right. So I went to bed. I stayed there for 2 hours and woke up to jack gaming. He has done things today, he did some legal stuff for the house, changed all my sockets and light switches in the craft room, hoovered and tidied the craft room and moved my dressing table into there. So he has helped me a lot today but I think some of it was because he could see how dead I was today
This afternoon I sat and worked on my canvas. Its coming together a lot more and seems to make us laugh as well. Its such a smug Wooper XD which calmed me down a bit as I just ached so much it was starting to stress me out. I think what has made my condition so bad is that I was outside in -1c for almost 3 hours doing Oz's cage in all positions. It does look amazing and like a new hutch so it was worth it and it protects it too. If he cage ever goes outside again XD
Oz played outside til 8pm whereas usually i bring him inside for his evening play between 7-8pm but he was so happy I didnt want to disturb him. I bought him inside at 8pm but it was just so hungry so he only stayed in side for 10mins but he has been inside today and Ive sat outside with him twice so hes had fuss today.
I have got exercises to do T^T but I am not doing an hour because I feel dead. Also I have already been for a walk. So I have done something today. So I will do a couple of easy chloe videos and go for a bath. Jack isn't gaming with anyone tonight so he can leave his PC any time I ask he says ^^ that means I can have an early night :D
I was quite shocked yesterday actually, I came out the bath and was doing my skincare, I could hear jack finishing up his raid on elder scrolls online - a game hes played since its launch which was about 10 years ago. He was asking the leader of his guild if they could find someone to replace him as hes getting very bored! It shocked me. I hope I havent influenced his decision as I have, on several occasions, slagged it off. I do not mind him playing that game or playing with others but he does the same raid over and over and over again. For what? to get new gear he says. But then they have updates a few times a year which releases new gear so they do the raid again for new gear. I told jack that I honestly see it as a waste of life. I feel he has been disillusioned with it and I have broke the spell as he has started to see it from my point of view. However I did not want to give it up, I just wanted him to enjoy it and get something more out of it. It all seemed pointless and neverending in my eyes. So yeah soon on a sunday - until they find a replacement - jack will be free to do something else. I said he can still have a gaming night but maybe ether with harvey and theo or with me.
We shall see
tomorrow
mummy has taken the day off work tomorrow for me! She wants to spend time with me.
So we are getting to TK MAXX for 9am, the shops in britain opened today and we said we would go tomorrow, I just hope theres not a big que to get in. We said if there is a big que that we would leave it. I plan on taking soup over to mum's so I can have lunch with her. I dont need much from the shops, jack however NEEDS clothes and underwear. So I am going more on his behalf. He has given me permission. I had to almost blow the dust off my handbag as its not been used in months! not been round shops since early decemeber or maybe late november.
