Evening
Last night I did try to sleep, Jack had offered to sleep on the sofa but I said it was fine as it was the last night we would have to share a single bed. As i started to drift off to sleep he blurted something out in his sleep, as he fell asleep before me, it made me jump and i wasnt comfy so i got up and had yet another night on that sofa. To be woken up at 7:50am by my dad's mobile blasting out a video as he doesnt adjust his volume so everything, EVERYTHING, is on full blast. It annoys all of us. i could hear my brother banging in his room as his room is above the kitchen - where dad was watching this video. So it woke him up as well. I went to go wake jack up and spent a bit of time laying on the bed with him.
This morning I wanted to go for a walk but no such luck as my parents had other plans
my dad was dragging my brother and jack to make the bed up and do other bits and pieces round the bungalow and i was to go shopping with mum to go get some bits from B&Q and food shopping just so jack as well could have breakfast round the bungalow T^T
we got back and i went to bed feeling exhausted
just as i began to go to sleep, jack rung me T^T does no one want me to rest, seriously!?
he wanted the stuff we had been out for. I almost cried cus i couldnt take much more. mum could see my distress and stopped making mine and jack's soup for the week and took the stuff over so i could go to bed. i woke up at 2pm to find jack home, waiting to have lunch with me. mum offered to make him lunch but he wanted to wait for me. so i had to make both out lunches which was hot cross buns
then as the sun was still up i said i wanted to go for a walk
and as we were half way round jack's mum txted to say she was 20mins away with his stuff. we were not 20mins away from the bungalow. so jack started to pick up more of a pace. a pace i was struggling to keep up with as i was tired and achy. i told him that his mum can wait 5mins
we got home and loaded the car with stuff to take round to the bungalow, i dropped it all off with jack, his mum no where to be seen as she'd stopped off for a mcdonalds so we hadnt needed to rush afterall. I went straight home before his mum could show up as i didnt want to stand there getting colder by talking.
got home and had a cup of tea with Oz then went for a shower
took my socks off to see my toes were purple and blue they looked like a corpse's toes
really gross
i was ages in the bathroom as it was the most peace i had had in days. no one to disturb me, no one to want anything. god i should have spent my weekend in there if i knew id left alone!
i felt so much better for a shower and had chilled out a bit
jack was over at the bungalow til 6:30pm as his mum had gone back home and brought him more stuff and its an hour round trip. so he now has all his stuff just not his furniture. mum says "Bet it will look like a bachelor pad round there until you get your stuff in Jo"
he came round and i sat with him whilst he had dinner as i ate mine with my brother
then we laid on the bed. i cried. letting out everything i had held together this weekend. sheer exhaustion. i have no idea how i will get through school like this. i havent rested at all. cus people always want something. but jack is in now. he is still gonna have meals here until we have a freezer and all the means to prepare food. apart from that hes done. he will wait for me. i cried earlier thinking about moving out and the big change it will be. but he told me not to rush. and my first sleep over at the bungalow is scheduled for this wednesday. as i used to sleep over at jack's flat on wednesday.
hes gonna work out the shower tonight and make the bedding up and hopefully get his ass sorted for tomorrow morning when i got pick him up for school
so tonight i get my single bed back to myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can not frigging wait
i have kicked all his stuff out my room, put my bed against the wall instead of in the middle of the room and i have so much more room its great ^^
i hope he is ok tonight tho. he has no interent til 5th december tho XD
so school tomorrow, should be a quiet day as i dont have a single practical.
just shattered
doing my nails tonight, something for ME as ive done nothing for myself for days and days now
i once again forgot to take photos -____- everything is so full on and go go go that i dont have chance to sit there and appreciate the house never mind photograph it
next weekend hopefully i can
