Evening
Of course on a day where I dont have to get up as early, I still dont sleep well and still wake early!
I was shattered this morning
I had time for 20mins of yoga and to sit with my tens machine
it was a different morning I guess
I got to the pain clinic for 9am
I saw my usual hypermobility specialist, shes always impressed at how far I have come
but she also jumped on the band wagon and told me how bad my health is right now and how stressed my body is >.> yeesh im sick to death of hearing it!! I know its bad I know I am stressed
she said it will get better
she also said to not wear my supports which i havent been doing as they are poorly fitted. She said muscles become weak and reliant on them. She said my joints havent gotten worse, its simply my pain is a lot worse so certain areas feel like theyre hurting just cus pain is worse.
She said as well with my hypermobility that in my 30s my pain and clicking will be worse but then towards my 40s it will be a lot better as the body starts to naturally stiffen up, she says she sees no hypermobility patients in their 40s then she said i might be more prone to arthritis to which she said if i do get it i will get it several years earlier than most
fantastic
she said I need to be more selfish and think of myself, to rest more and tell people you need or help or arent doing something. to load off onto people stresses i cant handle. she says i need to cut out as much stress as i can - one being dad's attitude
i left for school and had an easy day really
done feel i did much at all but it was boring
chris said he might have me helping him design some school documents on friday and he said the displays i have done in science have gone on the school website for the new year 6 to see :D that made me happy as it feels worth doing when they are appreciated.
I came home and had a brew with mum and Oz then went for a walk with mum
she wanted to hear about pain clinic and she had a few rants about stuff
she says she will talk to dad about dogging me about the bungalow
i came back and got in pyjamas, got stuff ready for school, had dinner
then started drawing my halloween charmander
its going well i think
tomorrow is school
really cant be bothered!
just want to sleep~
