Evening~
fell asleep around 12 to wake up at 1am
life is cruel -____-
i went downstairs for an hour
so sick of entertaining this whole not sleeping business
i woke up at 4:30am as well
and then 7:50am
i had an easy morning in my pajamas
i did do half hour of yoga tho
then went in the shower and had lunch
which was a mistake as its given me stomach ache all day
at 1:30pm i went to see jack
we went and brought convention tickets!
yup were going! believe its 4th may were going
hes never been to a convention so it should be good
then we went for a walk around the park in the town centre
i havent been round it since i was a child
so it was good to see
and its right next door to jack's old high school
so he was much more familiar with it than me
we went back to his as it looked like rain
it actually hailed today as well
we talked with Theo til he went out to the gym
then we sat and had a brew
and talked
i think i freaked him out a bit as i told him i dont have all my emotions which he knows as he's met Eko who has a good portion of my emotions but i think it hit him a bit when i said i dont have sympathy, empathy
yeah it hit mum hard as well
cant help it
im not proud of it
and yeah it bothers and scares me
as ive watched enough people to 'copy' these emotions or reactions
he said it was a bit psychopathic
but that i was still me and yeah. maybe i shouldnt have told him
i got home and had dinner
and then i decided to google the psychopath test as i know there is such a test
and 'normal' people score 0-5
i scored 17....
at least i know i can do well on tests XD
yeah its a little sickening i guess but then it doesnt actually bother me
im me and thats all there is to it
i told jack ive taken up yosakoi again
and he wants me to sleep over on tuesday
i said maybe by then id have a yosakoi finished and show him
he seems up for even trying it himself
so we shall see
i feel tomorrow i got to work hard at my dance practice!!!
dont want to show myself up ><
i have been putting off showing him tho i have to say
i guess i worry what he will think
as i know im not great at dancing i just enjoy it
i do wish i could dance better but yeah, i know improvement is slow when you only teach yourself, still i know i got to show him one day ><
ordered a new screen protector for my phone as i dropped mine this week (never drop my technology) and it scratched it up pretty bad
the one and only time i drop something and it scratches but i guess thats what the protector is for.
so tomorrow i am drawing and dancing
thats as much as i have planned so far
lets bring on another night of not sleeping
and another day time of stomach ache
woo go jo!
