Today would have been granny's 81st birthday :(
she almost lived to see it!
mum decided she would like us all to go out for dinner
for such an occassion
I slept rubbish last night i woke up twice scratching my face!
So now I have quite a red face from scratching =.=
why was i even doing that!?
I sat with the piggies as always
pinky seems a lot better now thank god
then i went upstairs and started to get ready
to take photos of my hoodie
i realized that a bit was wrong so i had to unpick 1 inch
then sew it together again then i took photos :D
Then i sorted my wall out i felt like changing
a few bits round. i get fed up of looking at the same scene each day
mum came home we had lunch then went out
we just did 4 charity shops and the bank
i saw this in a charity shop tho for £1.99
umbrella brooch, i always like thick plastic brooches
but theyre usually very expensive. ive seen em at vintage fairs
and antique shops they usually £20+
this was one cheap and different at it has metal decorations - flower and handle
so im guessing its not worth anything but i sure dont care i love it!
its going on my new winter coat which is pink ^^
Came home and went to bed as i knew id need my strength
for the evening, usually id be fine but given i barely slept
i thought it was best to top up my sleeping hours
then got ready to go out
were going to a pub about 20mins away
i hate eating out i really really do
as i hate being in the presence of my dad and im always
on edge when him and pubs are involved
ive had many panic attacks in pub toilets because of him
also its food. food at restaurants stresses me out big time
depending on how strong i am depends on weather i have soup
or a proper meal. and if the menu happens to list the calories of
each meal i know im looking at that!! it frustrates me so
its not normal behavior and i tell my head to shut up
sometimes i win sometimes i dont
see how i go tonight
im wearing grannys necklace which my auntie got her
she always used to wear it when she went out anywhere
so i thought id put it on in memory of her i have kept her ring
and necklace on at all times tho. but this necklace is one
i really associate with granny. because it was my auntie who gave it
granny im thinking of giving it to sarah on the day of the funeral
my auntie was her mother who died before granny so it became precious to granny
i think it will mean more to sarah than myself
besides i do not want to look greedy and grave robbing as i chose
the jewelry i wished to remember granny by
tomorrow im not sure which project i want to start
