Yon~
I have been at jack's since he came over the other day when we brought the house
we have since been in contact with estate agents, solicitors and such
its suppose to be exciting but i feel probably 25% excited and 75% overwhelmed and stressed
im not coping
im just not
ive cried - several times
im struggling to eat although i am trying hard with that
jack is doing really well me bless him, he never gets annoyed or exasperated with me
hes just always there
the first night at jack's i couldnt sleep so he got up with me and made me tea and we had biscuits, i was stressed so my pain is BAD
last night he couldnt sleep so i got up with him and we had tea again
we support each other which is what it is about really
i dont regret my decision on the bungalow at all
its just a lot you know? jack is so calm about it all and excited
we didnt do an awful lot the past 2 days
we did have take away which i tried to eat but i couldnt eat as much as jack and theo
we tried to get a joint bank account but you need a face to face appointment for that and the banks oddly enough are still unprepared and lack protection and therefor are not doing appointments and you can only open a joint account that way. so thats had to wait
i got him to ring his mum and tell her the news
she was dead pleased for the both of us and has invited us over for a bbq on tuesday which is jack's 27th birthday so that should be good
i had an appointment with nigel on the way home today
that was a bit punishing
but he said that maybe we could have his book shelves
since coming home dad has talked none stop about the bungalow and stuff
its stressing me out to be honest
i managed to eat dinner but after dad piped up i felt like bringing it all back up and still do now at 9pm. everyone is supporting us and telling us it will be ok and get sorted but yeah
its hard....
tomorrow not sure what im doing
ive told jack that if im left alone tomorrow i will probably just stew or cry or both
so maybe id like to see him but dont know what to do
i havent done any exercise today...
its been 32c today the hottest day of the year and also the most humid
the humidity is crazy, you walk from room to room and sweat, never mind going outside or anything
so i didnt even bother to attempt exercise today
ill catch up tomorrrow
