Last night...what a night and more specifically what was I on!?
I dreamed of being in house with no lights on
an old hunched woman walked towards me and started muttering something
Then that was it somehow I knew I was changing into something
my skin burned, my jaw hurt and stretched, my hands and finger stretched and lengthened
I felt taller Im not sure what I was gonna change into but I had a feeling a werewolf
It hurt so much and I begged to stop I didnt want to be a monster I feel to the floor and blacked out
Thats when I woke up
I was sweating my heart was going mental but my jaw and hands ached
what the hell is that about!? why am i such a freak at times!?
this is why I dont wanna have sleep overs at times
I fell asleep had another dream about being a wolf.......reading too much fantasy it would seem
it was good tho and enjoyed the freedom of what running on all fours brings XD
I felt exhausted when I woke up this morning I had had further dreams about
water slides and running and climbing -___-
Cus of the way ive been feeling mentally I didnt want to go to school
but then I didnt know what i wanted to do instead ether
So off I went, riding on my bike in the pouring rain - YES RAIN AGAIN!
School was alright, did maths in the morning followed by poetry...seriously poetry..
on a day i was feeling particularity crap we were doing poetry
I went to go see my mentor - dept head - and asked her if i could have 5/10 mins of her time
she said to come see her at 11:45am - easy right
not if your me with a sieve for brains
we were working on making the fairground rides, so i was sawing wood and gluing
the moment i put someones work down someone else is shouting for me
busy busy busy but i liked it :)
we worked right up til lunch, lunch is at 12:15 I was suppose to see the dept head 11:45....
I went to lunch went to open my bag, saw the work i was suppose to get help with and yeah
i was annoyed and sunk my seat thinking "ive not gone to see the dept head".......
luckily she came in the staffroom 2mins later she said to me
"did you come find me earlier?" i sank in my seat at this point
"no, im sorry, i kinda forgot. I was busy"
she said "oh thats fine cus i had forgot as well!" phew i felt much much better
but i still felt off and dizzy
I didnt want my lunch
i made myself a green tea with the mug i bring each time - limited edition promotional one i got with some tea bags, it has a monkey on
I had just finished the last sip
a member of staff walked between me and the table where my drink was
next thing i saw was my mug going to the floor!!!
SMASH!!! if it wasnt for the little rubber heat protective band round it, it would have gone everywhere but it kept all the pieces together luckily
but the only piece that popped off was the monkey face....thats a bad omen right?
I said "man look what you did to my mug! look at the monkey's face! your cursed now"
he looked totally gone out at me and said "sorry" and walked off
I dont think he appreciated it was a mug from home, so i started putting the pieces in the bin
and cut my thumb on a shard. if i didnt feel like my lunch earlier i certainly wasnt feeling any better about it then.
after lunch we went on the computers doing programming ugh
i wasnt in the mood at all. in fact i stood there and a wave hit me, a wave of thoughts and emotions and panic
i had to walk and calm myself down cus all i wanted to do was cry
i have no idea why but i told myself i was being dumb
break time came.
in the staffroom it was me, a teacher and a TA
now this TA has been at the school 20+ years so she was there when i was a student
i didnt like her then and i dont like her now
she never smiles or laughs and i cant connect with people like that
but i dont think she likes me
if im in the same room as her she wont talk to me
she looks at me with disgust
im not bothered, i find it amusing
so when the 3 of us were in the room, they were having a conversation about politics
when they had a pause i thought 'how could i make her look at me with disgust?'
so I said "do unicorns have wings?"
yep that did it! she looked at me and turned to look out the window!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
match point Jo XD
the teacher guy turned to me and started talking unicorns to me, at least someone comes down to my level XD
then i was asked to clean up the classroom whilst they went and did rehearsals in the stuffy hot hall.
i did not mind cleaning at all. but the last half hour of the day dragged
got home, showered and had a brew
but didnt feel right at all
didnt eat a lot of dinner
then at 7pm i realized i never took my morning medication
so thats why i was feeling so cruddy!
glad im not coming down with something
shows im addicted to them tho >.>
tomorrow i have college
wooo -__- im not in the mood to go at all!!
but at least ive done my homework like a good student
taking my DS lite and lollypop
here's my hoodie i made for helina
it started life as plain
i added the kitty face on the front, the two cat faces on the hood ties
the cat tail and bow
and the ears
i hope she will like it
lets see what i dream tonight!
