Free of Psychology!!!!

Evening~~

I couldnt be bothered to do my diary last night
too stuck in my own head to express my day in the best light
so I did it today~

But as for today
I didnt sleep and had to get up in the night as I ached a lot
I got up at 8am and it was another cold frosty morning
doesnt stop Ozwald coming out tho

I did 40mins of yoga
followed by 30 mins of dancing
i was tired
i was tired anyway before the exerise
and exercise felt hard today
everything felt hard today just like its hard to get going
and stuff taking extra effort

i had a much needed shower
and then cleaned my room which took effort i have to say
was not in the mood but got on with it
had lunch and went to bed for an hour

i got up and did some painting
and had a tea
then i went to psychology - an appointment  i didnt want to attend 
we talked about everything and how much i had improved in accepting myself
and the way i am and that im not crazy 
and we basically agreed that it was best to finish my sessions!!
after a whole sodding year of going to that place im finally finished!!
well happy ^^
so he said I can come back if i need to tho 
which made me feel better that i not just left alone
but i do feel it was ready and time to move on
so yeah i just gotta get on with stuff basically
i know what i need to work on and what to accept and i need to stop seeing myself in bad lights and that people will ether accept the way i am or not really
i left that place feeling happy i hadnt got to return!

i came in and announced it to mum
as i was really happy that i was finished with it all
we had a brew and i sat with Oz

now im just doing my diary and wondering how to pass my evening
as mia has said shes not feeling great and doesnt want to pass it onto me
so not seeing her now
i hope shes ok for manchester on saturday

ill probably revise science
or do some drawing

my nails this week~

bit messy actually

Tomorrow I am gonna go food shopping with mum so I can choose a cake
to bring into school on friday for my birthday just to share with the science staff
and then we have an acupuncture massage at a place we havent tried before but came recommended from yoga karen. rest of the day not sure what i will do yet. depends how i feel after the massage i guess. 

Dance with Tara

Yoi~

I didn't sleep great 
but still got on with my day

I danced for half hour til I was sweaty and showered
and pretty much got ready for work
felt a bit off tho

I got to work and saw everyone
but my head was so busy i couldnt think straight
and Jack asked if I was ok
i said I was fine
i was ok i was just in my own head I think 
I got the shift done anyway

I came home and pretty much got changed and had
a brew with Oz for 10 mins and went out to see Tara
I havent seen Tara this year so I was looking forward to seeing her

I was lucky enough to sit with her Hammy who was so damn cute
then James brought the bunnies down and my god Rocky!
he had such a foul mood on him
wouldnt stop biting me! i didnt mind as its fleeting pain and it amuses me
if anything and it reminds me of how Kip used to be with me

we then went onto Just dance together which was fun
we were both sweating afterwards but it was fun
i showed her a couple of my dances Ive been learning
she was well impressed and she knows i love doing my jpop dances
so she was supportive of it, dont think ive ever danced for her
she offered me dinner but it was 8pm
i needed to drive home, shower, have Oz out and Id had enough so I came home

Mum was annoyed with me that I hadnt really eaten all day
so I was made to put Oz home and get food at like 9pm
but I got something then I went to bed

I texted Jack to say I was sorry for being off with him
bless him he thought after sunday that i was in a mood with him
so i was glad to clear that up
he told me he was watching Lovelive! in bed
made me think that I havent watched anime in bed for agesssss
thats all i did as a teenager XD

It was good to see Tara and she gave me a birthday present
and we said we'd meet up on the 17th and do waffles~
something to look forward to to