Last night I was looking up food recipes for this FODMAP diet
the doctor suggested I tried. So I found loads and some stuff actually looked really good
So I said to mum "when we go shopping tomorrow I may need to pick
up some stuff for my diet"
mum "what? you need other ingrediants?" she said it like id asked her for £50,000
With the tone she gave me and the face I said "forget it mum, im just trying
to help myself but just forget it" she walked off
I was quite hurt actually. Dad isnt arsed now mum didnt support me on this ether
so I was a lil upset as it wasnt called for and I didnt understand why she spoke to me like that
so forget it, i wont bother trying, clearly its gonna be harder than I thought
I woke up at 7:30am this morning
My nose was blocked so my mouth was so dry
I blew my nose. Blood 0.0
Ive never had that before, never in my life has blood come from my nose
so of course that wakes me up >.> luckily it wasnt an actual nose bleed
jeez think i would have woke the whole house if i did have a nose bleed XD
So I ended up getting up at 7:45am cus I was wide awake at this point
I went and did my parents a cup of tea and brought pinky
to mum in bed with a brew ^^
I like those odd days when Im up before her.
I just had a hot choc for breakfast
After the pet shifts, I started doing more on the collage
I cant believe how long its taken to do
but I wanted to get it right and im not used to working with paper
So I was sat doing that, whilst my dad and brother were downstairs
in the kitchen pulling up the floorboards, no one could get into the kitchen
mum said she was ready to go shopping
but she was just stood gorping at my dad and brother doing the floorboards
i shouted "mum what are you doing?" I thought she had just switched off for a minute
"nothing! im coming now!!" face bitten off again. she turned to dad "you gonna be alright?"
He said "yeah when you take her out the way F***ing Braindead"
so I felt brilliant about myself this morning. really did just wanna crawl in a ball
for a few days.
I went shopping with mum, none eventful. and I picked up a cross stitch frame
i needed for the collage.
I said to her "dad isnt nice calling me F***ing Brain dead"
she said "oh he is just stressed"
she always takes his side in matters. always defends him. pees me off
I got home and the kitchen was without floorboards
I went straight to bed. Screw the world thats how I felt
I just felt sad and tired. I wanted to be out the way of people
out the way of dad as he's no doubt just swear at my face, out the way od my brother
cus id just be in the way. and out the way of mum cus she gets stressy when things are untidy.
So I went to bed. woke up it was 2pm
I hadnt eaten still and I couldnt get to my medication and no way was i asking
to get to them. Id rather suffer than get in the way.
I was sat in my room doing the collage, almost finished it
at 3:30pm the kitchen was back to normal so i got my medication and something
to eat i was starved!
Continued my collage and got it finished!!!
I am so pleased with it, my brother took this photo and photoshoped it
i did take a photo but it looked so flat and didnt do it justice an next minute i knew
he had tri-pods out and flashes and camera bags, it was quite good watching him
with all his kit and i really love the photo ^^
I cant wait to give it to karen~
I drew the dragonfly
made the little rosette and the flower
wrote the quote
so i made it all really, hardest part was the composition!
Tomorrow is school :D
yay I like school~ tomorrow I will be working with the retired teacher
who is was my brother's old teacher X3
