ahhhh Jo has not been well
sooo dizzy and feeling sick
its been awful
im so damn tired too and its not from lack of sleep ether
i know i have a cold and cruddy diet but this is damn stupid
yesterday pretty much did nothing as i was just poorly
i came home for some more medication with jack
then stayed at jacks for the night
just didnt want to be in my prison of a bedroom
we havent done anything just because im sick
and i have work tomorrow!!!!
im constantly having to think about food tho
this diet is very hard work i have to say
and im having meat with every meal including breakfast
its just numbing
ive had enough of the taste of coconut as everything in this damn AIP diet
is made with coconut!!!!!
soul destroying
jack has pretty much ate the same meals as me lately which makes it easier
hes just added to his nicer food XD
i made crisps today which turned out well
didnt google it or anything just randomly tried it
i had a look last night of the last 20 items i have ordered online
and it was quite sad actually as apart from christmas gifts
my last 20 items looked like something a 45 year old woman would be
interested it, literally just creams, face products, health products
like nothing fun or interesting
just stuff to maintain myself or make myself look healthier
slightly soul destroying that
im only 27 i need to have a long hard look at myself
where did the Jo go that ordered anime figures and games
i pity myself at times
well tomorrow marks off a week that i would have been on this diet
and i have stuck to it 100%
i feel like ive lost half a stone tho i actually do feel like ive lost weight
i have no idea if i have or not as i am not weighing myself as im not getting involved with that, that isnt what this is about for me
and in a week i have had stomach pains 3 times. so out of all those meals that is good
and it wasnt the horrific pain it was ether it was just a bit of pain
so i think something is working
its just horrid being on this diet
im missing bread and milk the most so far
and sweet stuff obviously
anyway today marks a moment for me
as i have completed my first picture using mangastudio5!!!!
finally -____-
it is a lot better its just A LOT to learn
but this is my first attempt
i did a little demon as i call 'my' fridge at work (biology fridge) Phantom of the fridge
and now ive drawn this to go on the front so i will be printing this bad boy out tomorrow at work and putting it on my fridge - jack said i could X3
he hasnt seen the final thing
i would have liked the font to be better but thats a photoshop problem i have yet to deal with
i need to sort my photoshop out basically
but for a first effort using a new software and doing a different style
im happy
tomorrow is work
my first working day of 2020
i went to get pond weed thats needed for tomorrow morning but the place was sold out
i tried
so i might have mardy teacher to deal with....
but on the whole looks like a pretty ok first week back
im just hoping that
1. im feeling better tomorrow and this 2 day dizzy spell goes
2. i can get through the week
and finally 3. this diet doesnt cause me to murder anyone during my week
