Evening
Despite sleeping so much when I got home yesterday, I actually slept really well
I am still not sleeping actually in my bed im sleeping ON it but hey its sleep!
I woke up at 5:40am and got up at 5:45am cus thought I may as well really
I got ready and managed to totally avoid dad this morning, as in i actually didnt see him!
I left early as I wanted to get home early to go to Nigel's
The traffic lights all turned green whilst driving it was weird and I ended up
getting to school at 7:30! really early! but I made a start
Jack came in and I told him that I had been here half an hour already
and he said "you are keen" I said "no I have Nigel's after school" ><
so he was cool with me leaving as I had come early, we have a bit of leeway with leaving and starting, we have 30mins each way as technicians so we can be half hour early or late as long as we complete the 8 hours a day it is ok, if its over half hour we have to request the time or let someone know
Head of biology still wasnt in, then Luke found me in the morning and said that she had text him to say that her son has tested positive for Corona virus so she wont be in for a while :/
that virus keeps getting closer and closer
My day was alright it was easy I just keep feeling unwell, doesnt look good when I was in a ball shivering in the corner on my side and the head teacher saw...he was like "is she ok!?" Jack said "shes just having a minute shes not feeling good" I said "im so cold" I didnt want to say "im so hot" as he'd send me home with suspected corona no doubt but yeah probably didnt look good but i get my job done i just have periods of feeling unwell im sure its the remnants of this virus. my heart was going out of rhythm a lot too. and I said to julia and jack whilst eating lunch "do you ever get it when you feel like youre on the verge of tears? like the littlest thing and you would just cry?" they both understood and said we all get times of feeling more fragile than others. as thats how i was feeling all day. like i could cry. i said to jack "I literally cant take anymore. If anything goes wrong or something I am just gonna have a breakdown and cry" I think Jack along with many others, are concerned about where my mental health is heading right now
I got home dead early as I left at 3pm I was able to have a brew with mum and a bowl of cereal (was starving) and a pain killer. Then I went to Nigel's
I told him how setting fire to the needles last week seemed to really help
he said "I should have figured setting fire to you works best"
he did cupping, massage (that killed) and then set fire to 8 needles and put a further non-lit needles in my shoulders. But I told him I think one is burning my skin and he said it wasnt but I was convinced as the pain was red hot my got it was painful and he did put more card down to protect my skin which did help but i couldnt believe how hot they got and the room was so smoky
I felt crippled by all of nigel's treatments
he said he was sorry it was the last treatment and I thanked him for all hes done for me
he said "I have enjoyed hurting you"
i laughed and said "well thats one way to remember you!"
he said "yeah its been good and if you and Jack ever come to belgium come say hello"
we have each other's numbers and instagram so we will stay in touch
i am seeing him on sunday at 12 to pick up the book cases
I am seriously gonna miss that guy, hes helped so so much and I wish him the best
I got home and showered to get warm
got in my pyjamas and had dinner
then I cut out Jack's masks to make tomorrow, doing my diary and then I plan on choosing Bulbasaur's colours then I will get Ozwald out for the evening. He sat on my knee last night X3 I love it when he comes hopping over and makes himself comfy on my lap
tomorrow
I am getting up and depending on how I feel I might do some dancing or at least some yoga as I have had 2 days on the go of not doing anything but I havent been able to do any exercise. Just glad I got through school to be honest!
I need to go to the post office in the morning to get rid of my ebay stuff
then I will come home and make a start on Jacks masks, and maybe the guinea pig plush if i get round to doing that as well. then at some point jack is coming over and he is sleeping over again which will be nice so i have the day with him and I think we are going to look round beds for the bungalow
