Evening
I didn't get chance to do my diary yesterday
a lot happened yesterday ^^;
I woke up and fell over. This is new! I was like drunk. The room was spinning and I couldnt walk straight. I shouted for Jack and I was just not able to walk straight and was walking into things and couldnt find my footing. I was dizzy...why? what had I done? It was like my brain couldn't process what my eyes were looking at fast enough so I would fall over. Dead weird. frustrating as hell. I did not need this....
a morning we had stuff to move for the carpets to be laid in the hall and living room
so poor Jack, sat me down in the kitchen, sorted my breakfast out and got to work moving stuff. I felt so bloody useless. And cursed!! like seriously cursed!!!! first my back now I am dizzy. just what the hell!?
someone one is messing with me.
I ate breakfast and went to bed whilst Jack gardened. He didnt want me moving around as there was stuff everywhere.
Jack took me to the doctors for my blood test. Which I managed without fainting however it was painful and slow but the nurse said that was because I wasnt feeling 100% today. she tested my wee and said it was fine and took my poo sample off me
after lunch I sat round, cus what could I do?
but it got to about 4pm, the carpets were done, men were gone and I realised I could walk in a circle and not fall on my butt. I said to Jack "look im loads better!!" I wasnt fully healed but I was better. I cut his hair and we had early baths as we were going over to harvey's for a takeaway.
I really really wanted to drive as it meant Jack could have a drink and after all he has done this week I think hes bloody earned a drink with his mates. He was like "you sure? if I drink it commits you to driving and im not being a dick and making you drive just so I can have a drink" but i really wanted to do this. So I managed it. It was just slower driving to my usual as I didnt have fast reactions.
we got to Harveys and spent from 6pm to 10pm with him, theo, brandon and matt.
we sat outside talking really, it was nice. They guys ordered from fat hippo. which is a burger place jack has wanted to try and from looking at him I dont think it disappointed XD it looked so big and greasy....he had cheese balls too and fries. I took over leftovers so I didnt push my stomach too much.
We then ordered from Kaspers which is a pudding place. the guys all had waffles I had cookie dough, which at one point was like crack to me. Honestly I would have had that hooked to my veins. I was looking forward to it - my first non-diet piece of food since february. My first sugar.....
and I couldnt even get half way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i got stomach ache T^T i felt sick and was in pain.
but to be honest it didnt do it for me. there was nothing wrong with that slab of gloriness in front of me but it just didnt do it for me. have my tastebuds changed? it wasnt like amazing and I didnt have a strong need for it. Yeah i think I am over my sugar addiction. considering the pain it caused I actually dont want to go back to that kind of diet ether!!!
we left at 10pm as I was driving and tired. matt and brandon left too as they had work in the morning.
we got home and I left Oz hopping round the garage, so I thought I would bring him in for a cuddle then put him home. The outside light didnt come on but I could see the silhouette of Oz in his cage so I talked to him and told him how good he was to take himself to bed. But because I couldnt see his face I couldnt see if he was asleep or not. I think he was sleeping....as I picked him up and he went mental. I got my lip, nose and chest scratched. I bought him inside and his thudding his back feet but he did calm down. i fussed him for 15 mins and put him to bed. Poor Oz I wish I have left him! I felt awful spooking him like that ><
I struggled to sleep as my stomach killed. I was in a ball in bed and even dreamed of stomach ache! I dreamed I had swallowed a blade. Yeah.....
I woke up a lot as well just cus of pain. But I wonder if thats because I havent been able to exercise :(
This morning Jack woke me at 8:45am I had no idea what day of the week it was. I usually know when Jack has left the bed but not this morning. as soon as I sat up that bedroom was on the move....my god I was dizzy -_____- i was so annoyed I felt worse than yesterday.
so that was me screwed again. I had a headache and felt sick.
I ate breakfast and went back to bed. I woke up and ran to the toilet spitting as I thought I was gonna be sick. I think I might have a virus as I am not normally like this.
Jack jetwashed the fence panels in preparation for the painting tomorrow, mum came to see me. I was so worn out and couldnt walk without feeling dizzy and exhausted. just talking to mum was tiring and i had to just face her I couldnt look away without feeling dizzy. She brought me a load of parcels which was mainly new work wear :D
I couldnt even use instagram earlier as the scrolling up action was too much. I cried. out of frustration of life. Jack consoled me. poor jack. he has had so much house and garden work to do this holiday and he has been full time carer. He has been walking with me room to room whilst the dizzyness is bad as he worries about me falling.
I reheated leftovers from wednesday and I couldnt eat it all!! whats up with me!? I usually scoff the lot im usually starving. my dizziness is only slightly better tonight. Last night it was so much better that i thought id be fine today T^T i am cursed.
i have managed to do my diary tho guess thats something. no exercise again tho.
I am gonna have a bath to which jack will probably need to help me out of again -____- hes playing D&D tonight we both had forgotten, he offered to skip but he needs to tune off.
tomorrow
9am ray - dad's friend - is coming over to paint our fence panels. He did my parents last week and did such a neat job that Jack insists we have him to do ours rather than Jack do it. To be honest Jack has done so much this week that I am fine with that. Not sure what else we will do as it depends on me. I wanted to go shops today for pyjamas but no. so i shall see how I am
