I had my paralyzing nightmare last night
in the end I just went a bit mental telling it to p**s off and that I wasnt scared anymore
the same nightmare that has plagued me for the last 7 years
then I found myself being lifted from the floor horizontally
i shouted "so you have a new trick you B*****d!!"
And I just laid suspended in the air twirling my hands round like I didnt care
at that point I woke up still heart pounding and drenched in sweat
but when I looked at the time I had woken up a whole hour earlier than what it
normally releases me at
so maybe standing up to it all is the best option
and who knows maybe on day i wont have this nightmare anymore
I got up for school reluctantly
Im just tired but I did feel better today than yesterday
so I think the anti-biotics are working but when I take them I feel
really crummy with the side effects but now Im half way through them!!
School was different
we had P.E. it was dodgeball and the child I care for seemed content in playing
so I wasnt needed and I went to do some printing and laminating that needed doing
i also did some sewing and stitched a little pouch
then it was music we had a different TA for it - one who's been there when I was at the school
shes VERY strict and quite frankly rude to the children
I could tell she was capable with everyone
so I went and printed out some more stuff and laminated them
so Ive managed to get all my jobs done which would have taken me all week!!!
I had a missed call on my phone it was from the agency
they said my primary school would like me from May 10th for 6 weeks
full time.....eep
Im not good with full time but we'll see
I said I'd do it
so I spoke to the receptionist and she told me who I'd be covering
and really happy Im coming back and that they even want me back!
I must be doing something right anyway
so it means that I get 2 weeks for easter which is next week
then I dont have any work from then til May 10th (as of yet anyway)
so its looking like I may get a month to myself!!! It seems lazy I know but Id be happy with that
im not arsed about the money it would just be nice to have time to myself
and possibly time with a new bunny
I came home had a slice of cheese on toast
then went straight to bed
woke up and went to watch vampire diaries whilst cross stitching
i only watched one episode it was alright i think i need to watch more to make a decision
on if i like it or not. but i want to like it as its something different to watch :)
Ed emailed me to say he's coming home 1st april for 2 weeks :D
Im so proud of him and im relieved he gets a break too ^^
Tomorrow I am working a full day! D:
I havent worked a full day in a few weeks so to do one feels like a hard ask actually
but I know I will be fine and mum is picking me up at lunch so i can have lunch
and a rest at home ^^
These are my nails this week I fancied a dotty spotty theme
they remind me of balloons
