Tadaima!!!!
I am home!!
I got home today at normal time really.
so wanna hear what I got up to~~~
So it was school as normal time yesterday
I still had no idea whether I would be attending year 2's castleton trip or not
the child I would be going for turned up and said she was going
and had a huge adult suitcase the size of her to prove it.
I wasnt sure if she'd get on the coach or not but she did
and was happy so i was full of anxiety as the coach pulled off
trying not to panic and run off the coach
The journey took us about 90mins I was sat next to a teacher i like
cus shes very easy to talk to but i was about 3 seats from the front and felt
quite travel sick
luckily no one was sick tho!
The place we stayed in looked like an old castle
to say it was a youth hostel the place was very clean, bright and the staff were friendly
it shocked me that it was such a high standard
honestly ive stayed in worse hotels!!!!
So first we let the kids go toilet (god knows how many times ive taken kids to the toilet!)
then we sat and ate out lunch outside
did some archery - i had 2 goes and 1 of them got in the target the bows were rubbish!
then we went inside to do some puzzle solving (we all said it was crap!)
we ended up colouring and drawing
then played outside
my energy was wavering
then they did this shield 'game' basically they had to hold up some chip board that was the 'shield' they were almost as big as the 7 year olds who held them! so a lot complained that the shields were heavy then we as staff had to throw these paper light balls at them whilst they deflected them
crap
and you can tell when kids dont enjoy something
then finally it was time to see our rooms! as the children has asked us over 1000 times "when do we get to see our rooms?"
I was in charge of 1 room of 4 girls
girls who are good girls
so i lucked out really there!
I lead them to their rooms and they got all giddy
I told them they had half hour to get the stuff all set and slippers on!
We came down for dinner
I was up down up down sorting kids out I ate a cold dinner in the end but I wasnt fussed really it was only jacket spud, baked beans, sweetcorn, broccoli
then it was fruit salad for pudding which was realy good actually
all the food surprisingly was!
Then they went outside for a bit
I was beyond tired I really was
I was feeling poorly cus my limits had been surpassed
The staff could see I looked like death
I was suffering from hay fever also!!! I was on 4 hours sleep as well!!
So I told the TA (the member of staff im closest with) that I didnt think I could do the evening
I was feeling really bad I was shaking and I was trying to hold it together
the teacher came across and said she wanted to talk
I told her I really wasnt feeling good but I didnt want to give in
she told me they were fine and not to worry as i wasnt giving in
she sent me to bed and told me if i couldnt do the walk tomorrow it was fine
so I went to my room at 7pm
I could hear everyone playing outside and there I was upset, ringing my mum telling her id made myself poorly and was sent to bed.
That night or evening, I spend listening out to the children running up and down the corridor, teachers telling them off, kids moaning about one another
chaos
and luckily cus the teacher had told all the kids that i was poorly to not bother me!
and honestly at the time i was kicking myself for not completing the day but actually i had done the right thing as if i had to got up 100 times telling kids to be quiet and stay in their rooms i think i would have snapped!
So today
after a night of drifting in and out of consciousness and a lot of cold sweats
id awoken at 6:30am
i knew the TA next door was waking me at 7am so I decided to get up and get ready
i would have loved a shower but decided against it
the TA knocked on my door and asked how I was
I felt rough and sick but put on my best face
I went and told the girls to get dressed for breakfast
the were good but faffed and talked A LOT
so I ended up doing a lot of the work for them i have to say
we came down for breakfast
I had cereal and then beans on toast with a sausage with orange juice and tea!
good breakfast I ate too much tho
so then we went upstairs to get ready for the 5+mile hike
we had to strip our beds and get all prepared to leave the room
downstairs we got ready to go
i told the TA over breakfast that i didnt think I could do the walk
that if i do id end up like i was yesterday
the teacher told me to stay behind and chill
i felt so useless
so i watched them all set off without me
i turned to sit outside, rang mum to tell her that i wasnt doing the walk
as she was worrying about me
then about 4mins later the child I usually care for an a TA came to say she didnt want to walk it (i had expected as much actually) so me and her stayed together
she didnt sit still tho
we walked round the inside of the hostel (i found a manga book in the library and ive ended up bringing it home!) we walked round the outside and then I let her play with water in the kitchen sinks and sat round for a bit. 3 hours later the group comes back
we have lunch
we get on the coach and go home
i sat at the front of the coach next to a TA
always checking on the child to see if she was ok she was just tired but i needed to sit at the front of the coach and i wanted her to sit with a friend rather than staff you know.
Got to school
half the class were taken home like as we came off the coach
others waited a lil longer for parents
then at 5 mins til 'normal' home time i asked if i could leave
as they said it was fine
i was walking and didnt want to get caught up walking with kids
i was so tired and tired of people looking at my death like state
I got home, showered, had a brew
laid on my bed and read and fell asleep with my kindle
then we've had a plumper in the kitchen til 8pm and we didnt eat til near 9pm
im tired of the day!
tomorrow I cant have a lay in cus i have acupuncture in the morning
but when i come back im going bed
adam said he wanted to see me
but i told him i aint doing anything!
im glad i did it and that i went
but im far from ready when it comes to doing another residential
im not well enough yet
