Evening
I slept pretty well
but today felt sicky and anxious for whatever reason
I was also tired
school was ok
I went to see Lizzi and ended up being with her for an hour for one thing and another -_____-
I couldnt do a simple working out of how strong a chemical needed to be because all I could think about was my weight, how fat I look and feel, to skip lunch, to not eat when I get home etc
It was doing my head in - literally!
Found it so frustrating. mentalness just been bad today I guess
I got the day done tho
Mummy is still poorly
Julia said her daughter is off school poorly, she sounds like she had the exact same bug as mum actually. My poor mummy T^T
we got home. I was so so dead honestly
I had bad aches which I had at school, I was shattered and had a splitting headache
but the show must go on, I had dinner to cook
then I was determined not to do any exercise tonight
but I knew after how my head had been today that I would end up killing myself if I did no exercise. I would be full of self hate and not sleep
so I managed 15mins of just dance but I really didnt try
dont think I was even sweating afterwards
went for a bath and when I came out I decided to look for just dance games on ebay
and wooooooo they had 2016 AND 2017
2016 is the one I need next and is usually £25 pre-owned in shops
I got it for £12 pre-owned. Then 2017 was only £13! such bargains needed to be had
Jack is having the new pokemon game this month so I need something XD
I have wanted another just dance for ages but never want to pay out for it
I know I wont play them every night but theyre a good alternative to weights or work outs in general. I only play whilst wearing weights now tho XD
now I might get some drawing done whilst Jack is in the bath, he takes ages to even get in the bath. Never known someone to spend so long on the toilet -_____-
tomorrow is school
and hopefully seeing mum after school too!
