Didn't sleep well
had the reoccurring nightmare of being raped
so i got up binged cereal had hot choc and pain relief
i was truly fed up
didnt sleep great after that as i was cold
needed a human next to me for heat XD
i got up at 6:50am
got ready for work
work didnt go well
i mixed sulphuric acid wrong
i broke a glass measuring jug
i couldnt find things
i wasnt doing things quick enough
and as much as jack kept telling me that i was doing ok and stuff wasnt my fault
i felt at fault and felt like he must hate me for taking up so much of his time
fixing my mistakes
it frustrates me greatly
i tried to eat something at lunch for the first time in weeks thinking id be ok now
a banana has given me stomach ache from 1pm til now 7:30pm
i just cant eat at work im guessing im too tense or something
ether way i couldnt wait to finish and was out the door as soon at 3:30pm came round
didnt bother waiting for alan or jack i just wanted to put the day behind me
i got home and mum made me a brew
i sat with her then my brother then did some dancing til i sweaty
and had a shower
ive gotten used to my new hair colour i quite like it
i found a photo i took of myself from tuesday evening so before i dyed my hair
tonight i can not be bothered to do a damn thing
im so tired
but i cant even loo forward to bed cus frankly whats the point
im not gonna sleep anyway
i will spend another night alone no doubt
need company during the night
sick of it all
im moaning i think ive just had a cruddy day and it hasnt gotten much better
no matter how hard i have tried with it all
tomorrow jack says hes going city centre so i was welcome to join him
i might do in the afternoon as its something to do
the morning will go to cleaning oz out and doing exercise
