Evening~
didnt sleep great
got up for a hot chocolate at 12:30
this morning i started working on a birthday card for mia
its almost done it was just drying so i couldnt continue with it
then i decided to do a bit of dancing which ended up
being a 45 minute session
after i sat and ate a apple then showered
went on my laptop and sorted a few bits out on my ipod
made a salad for my lunch
went outside and sat with truffle on my knee
she needs a hair cut
mum has decided this and so have i
but i cant work with mum there
so i did it whilst she was at work
truffle sat so beautifully on my knee and even stretched out!!
she looks and feels so much better and neater too
i think shes even pleased with it
im so glad it went well ^^
drifted off to sleep for 30mins
waiting and waiting for jack to say i could come over
even tho i felt like death
i just knew it was the last present run to do and i could rest once it was done
i set off but if im honest i didnt feel safe driving
it occurred to me half way that i probably wasnt that fit for driving...
i got to jacks he saw the state i was in and said i should have told him
and he could have come to mine but i said he'd been over to me the past few times
he told me that it didnt matter
he wasnt annoyed at me
we went inside and i literally just laid on his bed in his dressing gown
we talked and laughed
and i said i wanted to see the christmas market
i couldnt believe how many shoppers there still was at 5pm tho!
i brought a pulled pork, stuffing and apple sauce cob from the market
which was really really good, jack was having food that evening with his family
but i brought him 5 pigs in blankets from the same stall as i dont like eating alone
we got back to his and i just laid again
trying and hoping not to get stomach pains (i have them now of course)
he said i need to have some of my christmas present now as its in the fridge...
he said that was why it took him so long to get ready this morning, it took longer than he thought to make...
jo is secretly hoping for a cake *0*
we went upstairs and he got out his fridge a mason jar filled with granola
he said "its safe for you to eat, its all things you can eat on the new diet. I mixed all this together with mashed banana and baked it. wasnt too hard. i hope it tastes ok. and here's coconut milk too"
i was really touched
i couldnt believe he'd gone to the trouble of doing this for me
even i havent looked that much at my new diet
he said "i know youre a cereal addict and will find losing cereal the hardest part"
tis true tis true
so yes i can not wait to try it
i havent tried coconut milk ether
but he said if i like it theres more stuff to make it from and he can teach me how to make it in the holidays.
even tho i havent started my new diet yet im gonna eat it tomorrow as it doesnt keep for as long normal cereal
but it will be nice to have something safe to eat in the morning as i havent been bothering with breakfast in all honesty. unless you count a yogurt or apple.
then i left him as he was going to meet his family at a pub at 7:30pm for food
i was really glad i wasnt going
i was dead and he could see that
i could tell he wanted to see me for christmas and said id be welcome over
but i said i havent promised him anything because this is the state im in currently
he understands but it doesnt make me feel any less crap about it all or about myself
i have borrowed Flump for over christmas
i got home
pyjamas and talked with mum
she was impressed with the cereal
santa came on his sleigh on the street being pulled by his usual Volvo
always feels like christmas when i see him do the annual round
gonna sit with Oz now
who will probably love my new cereal as its got everything in it he eats! no lie there!
i might show it him tomorrow
then im going bed as im exhausted
tomorrow i will finish mia's birthday card
and maybe do some art
and bath the girls! the babies havent had a bath yet so theyre gonna be all nice for christmas
and rest
just bloody rest
