My day of loneliness ended
I went to bed whilst in an empty house
i woke up at 6am
been awake since 6am
I got up at 6:30
had enough of laying there
I got up and went to get the girls
i bathed them by myself they were good girls
they needed a freshen up as they do like to sit in their own wee time to time
i put them outside, cleaned up and ate my breakfast
i was done and dusted by 8am
i went for a shower and got ready to see adam who by 11am had just woke up
ahhhh
i did go over to his shortly afterwards
he was still adjusting to the day i can tell cus he has that sleepy look and his
voice is a lil hoarse but i like seeing different sides to everyone
i didnt know what to do
i wasnt in the right frame of mind today
i felt like i could have had a panic attack
adam dragged me out and we went for lunch we sat outside
i had scrambled eggs on toast it was really really good actually
and i ate it all as it was too good to let any go to waste
we walked back home
and we sat and talked i did his mum's nails
then we went in his room
where my mood changed once again
i couldnt bare the thoughts anymore so i think i drifted off to sleep for a short while
i was shattered
i got up and said i needed to go home, i needed to get out of the clothes i was wearing
i needed my make-up off i needed to put stuff right
so we practically left then and there
I came home, stripped and got into some comfier clothes
took my make up and felt a bit better about stuff
my mum was home and we talked a lil bit
i still wasnt sure what to do with the rest of the day what with it being 4:30
so in the end i drove us to a river and we had a pre-packaged ice cream (im not a fan)
i like fresh scoop ice cream
but i ate it
then we walked to the river front and picked up stones and threw them in
there was a guy in his 30s with 2 small kids
he was also throwing stones into the river
suddenly competition was on between him and adam...
probably the most fun ive seen adam have in ages
so i let him have it and in the end adam managed to get a stone the other side of the river...
thats just no possible
he was pleased with that and able to walk away
i dropped him off home
i came home and talked with mum about everything she's missed
my piggies are nice and soft from their bath
love fresh piggies
gonna miss doing Yosakoi tonight, everyone is home so i think my Naruko
will do everyone's heads in
i found a kimono set i love online its £15.99 and id love to perform in it
i told adam and he gave me a look and said "you dont perform"
I replied "ahhhh i know >< but in fairness no one ever says to me they'd like to see my dancing so therefor it makes me not want to show it, also its in japanese and you might find the whole thing a bit weird and find me weird"
he said "I told you months ago id like to see your dancing, and i wont find it weird, it makes you happy and i want to see that"
ahhhhh that makes it worse!!!!!!! I dont recall him saying he wanted to see my dancing
but in hindsight i remember very little in my life so he's probably right XD
i cant imagine ever showing him, or performing in front of anyone...
im really not that good at dancing
i did enjoy myself doing Yosakoi last night and afterwards i did a normal jpop song and it felt empty with out the Naruko actually. So im getting into it, I might perform...
who would I show?
i said "having the kimono might make me perform"
he turned to me, gave me a face and said "doubt it"
might have to prove him wrong on that front
tomorrow got the whole day to myself
just me and my thoughts
nice and healthy
my nails for this week
