Thursday, 10 October 2019

Home again

Konbanwa~~~

Yesterday it was work
nothing special and i felt fine
people were happy to have me back
jack said he had loads of people asking if i was alright
the head of science sat and talked to me for 10 mins
wanting to know if i was actually alright, healthy and safe to be in work
i told him i wont ever get better its a case of managing it and since summer holidays
my meds have been changing
i told him i do push myself to be in work as i worry about my attendance
and he said whilst my attendance is monitored, that he'd rather me take a day off here and there rather than me pushing myself, making myself sick, and needing more time off
and i know hes right i just said im stubborn and dont like giving in
he said i can  talk to him if need be and he will support me
he said the work i do is amazing and that everyone loves having me there ^^
always nice to get praise from the big boss XD

the prep room was a total total state -____-
i got on top of all my lessons and gave the room a good tidying
staff were coming through saying it looked so tidy
i was like "im gone for one day and the place falls apart, jack cant cope without me"
he was like "i actually cant" XD

jack said that the biology teachers had really helped him out by switching to other lessons in my absence or helping jack by getting their own lesson sheets and some equipment
so that was good to know
we have such a good team

jack asked if i wanted to stay over
so he came home with me to collect my stuff
we saw the babies and ozwald
then went to his
we made dinner which was a case of warming leftovers from the other night we made
then when that went down we went to get ice cream
i couldnt finish all mine and he rubbed it in my face that not only did he finish his
he took a mouthful of mine >.> git

we went to his were he was home alone
we were gonna watch an anime film but i was too tired to pay attention and wanted to zone out
so i got in pajamas and wrapped up in his dressing gown then under the duvet
he was like "you must be baking"
i said "i know but its nice"
and i just laid there talking to him he gave me cuddles and we had an early night
i was tired

this morning i got up and realised id left my make up at home but
i wasnt arsed really
its nice having someone to get up with and have breakfast with

school i kept going
i was starting to not feel good
like monday
but instead of fighting it i decided to listen to my body
so i got my lessons for today prepped and most of tomorrow
jack bless him gave me biscuits and made me a brew to help boost my sugar levels
but it wasnt helping and i said i needed to go home now if i want to be able to drive
so by 11:15am i was home
and ive been in bed all day feeling wiped out
ive sat with the babies and let oz sniff them
he didnt look impressed XD
he loved millie and i dont think any pig will replace her in his eyes

mum went yoga by herself as i felt i couldnt do it
but i got up and went for a walk as id been in bed all day
i ached and needed fresh air
it was good to get out
but my god i was knackered and a shower afterwards was just as tiring
im gonna get up for school and just see how i feel i guess
but id like to go as ive got two A-level practicals to do and its too much for jack to do
also being at home is boring!