Hardly slept
i am truly shattered
honestly just so damn tired
when will this end!!!
its been months since Ive slept through the night
I got up at 7:15am
did my morning routine and then had a shower
and got ready to see Jack
I got into the city centre pretty early so I went in a few shops
and its just as well cus he was a lil late but i wasnt arsed as i people watch
We walked up to the kitty cafe and was told it was fully booked
but had a half hour slot for £6 each and i kinda just thought i wasnt that arsed
so we walked round to find a suitable cafe to sit in
and he showed me his nerdery book and we made a character
that i wrote down so i can hopefully draw it
its gonna take some drawing as well cus theyres a sodding horse to contend with
we stayed there and shared a slice of cake which was good
then we walked down to the bowling alley
we booked a lane for 3pm and until then we played pool
the table was totally wrecked but it was free
i lost all 3 games but not bothered
bowling on the other hand i thrashed him at
it was 65 points to 106!! i did really well ^^
we set each other 'punishments' if we lost
mine was that i got to make him wear my massive unicorn necklace i had one
his was i had to hold his hand
just him saying that made me nervous
and i was determined to win
after the game i didnt make him wear my necklace outside i felt too cruel doing that
we walked to a pub and sat in there with a hot chocolate
and he put the necklace on
we talked and decided that i could just about hold his hand
it was nerve wracking for some reason
and my cheeks felt hot i felt so nervous
never felt stuff like this before
we sat like that for a while i was a bit quiet as i felt so damn tired
he asked if i was ok and i was i was just done in
and i dont think hes ever seen me so tired XD
usually im always hyper beans round him
i told him one day he'd see me worn out
he walked me to my bus stop and waited with me
i got home and had dinner
im so tired now
literally cant even be bothered to do my diary
i might take a sleeping tablet tonight cus im hoping it will knock me out
i got my tens machine out last night to help with pain
been years since i used it
guess it helped a bit
next time i see jack will be thursday as im busy friday and hes busy saturday
not sure what we're doing as of yet
tomorrow id like to start my painting
2 figures came today so ive placed them in my room but might have a switch round yet
its looking different tho my room is
