Can you believe we're ending another year!?
My god where has it gone
scary ne~
I had to look back at what had happened in 2017 to see if much had changed this year
Last year I had decided to go out with Adam, I was working, I got Oz, I was having CBT
they were probably the main points I think
so this year what has happened or changed :/
well in January I started having sessions from the psychologist and he referred me to see a psychologist, from there I tried different anti-depressants and even tried and anti-psychotic as the psychiatrist thinks I have dissociative Identity disorder. Im still seeing the psychologist and see the psychiatrist as and when
also in January my little boy Oz had his first birthday ^^
February I turned 26! I went to Matlock with Adam and had the day with my mum
April I started coming off tramadol a nasty pain killer I had been on for year, was not easy coming off those buggers but I achieved it, I also achieved coming off antidepressants!
Also in April I attended Antony and Joy's wedding~
During the summer me and Mia went to Mancheser comic con which was lovely just the two of us
September I went abroad for the first time in 16 years, I went to France with Adam and his parents which was nice but also confirmed to me that I didnt want to go out with him anymore
September was also when I ended my relationship with adam which he didnt take well but so needed to be done
October I went abroad on an airplane and without parents! first real independant abroad holiday I went with adam and breaking up with him before the holiday was the best decision ever, I enjoyed myself and its made me want to go abroad again
We lost Pinks this year she suddenly went
November I got my first proper job and dropped it after a month as I wasnt fit for work
in December we suddenly lost Maisy after only having her a year
also in December I started antidepressants again
so yeah a fair bit happened this year
i achieved I think what I wanted to this year
I went abroad and I got a proper job
granted they didnt go as planned as i ended my relationship after going abroad and had to give up my job, but still stands that I did these things and I will remember them
anyway today
well last night i did my nails~
last night I hardly slept cus my god I ached
i got up and had cereal and hot chocolate as i felt seriously sick from medication and from being in pain for so many hours
so when i got up at 7am i was so god damn tired
but I had to get up as I had doctors at 8:40am
i had first appointment but the doctor didnt stroll in until 8:45am good start isnt it
he gave me what i need and for the hormone blood test i need to come off my pill for a month
so i will stop taking that tonight
I came home and mum was ready to go to the city centre with me
we both didnt need much and wanted to get into the city before it got busy
we went round tk maxx and i managed to get the underwear i needed i honestly did so well i got 5 bras!! that is an achievement as im such a small size that its hard to find them and it only came to £24 whereas mum pays £20 for just 1 bra! bargain especially when im picking up two for £1.99 each!!! mum says its cus theres as much fabric on them as a tissue XD cheeky
we went debenams and I got another bra so in total today i got 6 bras so that means its safe to start chucking out my old ones, i never like to throw away unless ive replaced them
we went to a shoe shop for mum where i was about nodding off in my seat i was so tired and mum took ages but i wasnt arsed
we were home for 12:20pm so in time for lunch and i had soup and bread with mum
then i went for a much needed sleep
christ i was shattered
when i woke up mum had finished making the cake for tonight so i was able to lick out the bowl
then i finished my painting!!! im quite pleased with it and mum says its ok to put it up in the kitchen which is why i did it in the first place
its brands you would find in our kitchen
so we have:
Cadburys - chocolate
Heinz - baked beans and sauces
PG Tips - Tea
Flora - Butter
Nescafe - Coffee
Kelloggs - Cereal
Hovis - Bread
I did a bit of yoga for 20 mins and laying around I was tired still
sick of being tired!!!
I did 10 mins of dancing as well
then went for a shower
now just waiting for the pizza to cook then after were having sponge and custard
what a way to bring in 2018!
I think Mia was having a new years party tonight at some friend's house but shes not let me know whats happening and its 7pm and im in my pajamas
i dont want to go cus i went to her party the other night and im so damn tired i wont make it to midnight and its just her friends getting drunk and merry, not my scene
parties arent my thing
so im hoping she doesnt text me but if she does i will just tell her im too tired
tonight will be a quiet one of me being in bed for 9pm probably XD
to me new year means one thing - the date changes so i have to get my new calendar out
its no big deal
if i wake up from the fireworks at midnight then i might text a few people wishing them new years but if not then it doesnt matter, my phone will be on silent thats for sure
no one is waking me saying "happy new year" >.>
that was 2018 anyway
a sorta eventful year i guess
wonder what 2019 will bring~~
hopefully better health, new job, and family, friends and pets be alright
this was 2018 jozu~~
Oh yeah and i found out how long ive had my laptop for
9 years!!!!!!!
i can remember when i got it and people told me "they dont last longer than 4 you know"
and here i am 9 years later
been blogging using the same laptop~
