Evening
I slept well and so did jack actually, probably the brandy in his tea last night XD
This morning i did 25mins of dancing til I was hot and sweaty then went for a shower, then me and jack started to watch some of the videos we are gonna watch on monday just to keep us busy and to save time really, it was really boring and we only watched the first health and safety video as the solicitors rang jack at 10:30am and said we can go get the keys!
so I shouted mum from the top of the stairs and told her to get her stuff together as we were off to get keys and to also get a shed load of cleaning products, mum cleans all the time she loves it and knows what works best and what to get so we took her with us and she drove us to the estate agents and we got the keys and they have an awful key chain on XD then we went wilkos and spent £97 on cleaning products! 0.0 how is that possible!? my mum was loving it. We also got a kitchen bin with all that too as we need one.
we got home at 11:50am and had tea cakes and a brew and biscuit then we drove all the cleaning stuff over to the bungalow
I felt sick if i am honest but mum said it was excitement
I went and put the key in the door and opened the door and made jack carry me over the threshold XD he only just managed it, it was very inelegant but i expect no less from him
we looked round the bungalow, refreshing ourselves with it and assessing it really
the people who owned it and had left us wine, a card, lawn mower, garden equipment, microwave, washer, fridge, sofa, garden ornaments, a bit of cleaning equipment and a note
it was very lovely of them and i think they appreciate we were first time young buyers so we dont have anything
upon looking around i was feeling quite overwhelmed as i just literally didnt know where to start. everything has like a layer of grim on it like nothing has been cleaned for a very long time. like everything. window frames, light switches, surfaces, tiles, taps, everything
mum said for me and jack to do the kitchen as she wanted to do the bathroom
so i started on the fridge which was grim to be honest i had to take all the shelves out and disinfect everything and wiped down the whole outside too. jack started on the cooker, he thought the glass cover on the top was frosted glass...no it was just layers of grime. yeah its all very unloved and gross
we had all the windows and doors open to air the place as the air is stale
i was getting very cold
and to be honest it all got to me and i cried and jack held me. i was tired, in pain and just done.
mum saw and straight away was like "taking you home"
but i felt like i was giving in, i wasnt able to keep up and only managed to clean a small fridge
she said "it is not worth making yourself sick, things will get done when they get done. every little thing helps so what you have done has helped. we will just do a bit each time"
so she left jack there and drove me home were i got wrapped up, dosed up with pain killers and went to bed. i felt useless and didnt want think or feel
jack later woke me up and i was glad he was home and he was smiling but the smile soon vanished when he realised how dead i was. my body was weak and shaking. and i looked like death.
yeah not good
he told me his mum is coming on saturday and i cried as i worried that i might be able to help, its frustrating and if i can manage to even clean a house how will i be able to even live without the help of my parents!? if i can not help tomorrow and end up going home to rest, what will others think? will the think i am lazy or disinterested or ungrateful?
yeah i wasnt happy
i should be happy
i have a house, something i never thought would happen
but im just overwhelmed by it all
but i am also sure that we will do this
jack is supporting me all the way
my dad and brother maybe will come tomorrow, dad is rearing to go XD hes even taken the day off work something he NEVER does.
i hope tomorrow goes well for us
so yeah we are officially home owners
jack has been sorting out all the bills bless him
i cut his hair for him tonight so he looks tidy for when his mum sees him tomorrow, cant let her think im not looking after her baby boy XD
i am looking forward to decorating tho, i will take photos but today was just full on and i didnt get my chance.
