Evening
I couldnt sleep last night due to stomach pains and aches. It sucked. I somehow ended up being up til 1:30am. I was dosing myself up on everything, nothing would knock me out!
I woke up to my alarm at 7:30am as I wanted to get up early for food shopping. Yes I felt a bit deathly but I was to damn determined to go!
We pulled up at the first shop and as I was getting out the car my mum and brother were there and mummy gave me a hug ^^
we did the first shop and I was struggling to think but I managed it. to be honest at this point I had had enough but we still had a second shop to do. This was when my brain power turned the mush its been for 2 weeks, I had no clue what we needed despite looking at my damn list!! it was like nothing was computing in my head. In the end Jack took the list from me as he could see the computer had crashed in my brain XD so he took the lead and we finished the shop but god I had had enough.
that 45min shopping trip made me go straight to bed when I got home -______- I woke up to find it was lunch time!
we had lunch then i laid on my bed with a bit of stomach ache and told Jack how disappointed I am cus I knew I couldnt go out for cake and hot chocolate like we originally said. I was frustrated by it all as its going on and on!!!! whats wrong with me!!!!!?? yeah fed up
then I was stressing out about work cus lets face it, can i work on monday!? In my mind I was going on monday but doubt started to sink in. So jack told me I could work from home if needed. I felt a bit better but thats still me not in the school doing my technician work.
He helped me clean out Oz as I was not up to the task. I noticed when going to the garage earlier that the rat hole we patched up a few weeks ago with expanding foam had been nibbled....then I noticed the bit under the fence (where is backs onto a public footpath) had a fresh rat sized hole dug out the earth...so I told Jack this as he was finishing up the cage then just at that very moment a rat ran behind me and shot down the hole!!! I didnt squeal like a girl, I just gasped in shock. But that was enough to annoy Jack.
as soon as he finished the cage he went nuclear and dug down to the concreate under the fence and wedged it all with a load of brick and rubble. We said once it had stopped raining we would put outdoor wall filler on where the expanding foam is (only brought some this morning) hopefully that will stop the rat as clearly it had gone into the garage last night, jumped up to Oz's food which is high out the way but its surrounded by empty plastic plant pots and I found 2 plant pots on the floor so it had jumped up for the food, knocked the plant pots off and ran off as Oz's food was fine and the lid still on it. Bloody things. it will be an on going thing with this house as we have the public footpath. Our neighbour suffers the same thing.
I felt quite flat after everything. Life is not going how I want it. I rang my mummy
she told me straight "youre clearly not right. what good are you to work? can you work? I think you need to ring the doctors on monday for another doctors note. If you go to work youre just gonna make yourself worse and you need to get better first before you go back" 0.0"
well that put life into perspective XD I told her I would see how I am tomorrow >.>
I have pretty much done nothing alllllllllllllllllllll afternoon
cant do anything i am spent, exhausted, couldnt even do any painting as I felt I couldnt get my head in gear for it.
I did dinner
died on my bed after dinner with stomach pains. Yup I ate food and paid the price for it. Seems to be the daily thing lately.
jack went to game with theo
when I finished dying I fussed Ozwald then took him home, had a shower then did 30mins of slow yoga stretches cus I am tight from sitting on my heavy ass.
Now I will do my nails and go play my switch in bed, by myself
tomorrow
not sure whats happening as I think I am obviously still quite sick so anything I wanna do will have to wait. I will have another boring day at home. Life sucks so bad. My auto immune system is on the floor. I might have leaking small intestines and my immune system is struggling to fight off the remnant of this virus. I think I am about there with the virus its just made my long term conditions have a flare up as they feel they havent had any attention what with the virus moving in
