Evening~~
Didn't do my diary yesterday as I didnt go on my laptop!
So yesterday Jack wanted me to see him
even if all we did was laze around he said
so after lunch i went over to his and we just laze around
he asked me if i was worried about the blood test results
i said "no i think i have gone past the stage of caring"
he said "how can you not care? does it not concern you?"
i said "no not really, ive accepted ill never be truly well so whats more health issues"
he worries more than i do
he made me dinner
i didnt want to leave
i felt crap
what i had to go back home to was taking medication i didnt want to take
and a blood test in the morning
im fed up of being sick and unwell
i told him i didnt wanna go home as i have the blood test in the morning
he offered for me to stay over but i knew it wouldnt make a difference
this morning i woke up
knowing what was gonna happen that morning
i felt sick
it felt weird not to getting up at 6am for work tho
blood test
i did so well
i remained conscious but getting up off the sofa thing i kinda went a bit then
but over all it didnt take as long as it has done in the past
so i came home had a sweet tea and biscuits and recovered
then went to work
didnt want to all i wanted to do was sleep
got to work and the first person i saw said "you look knackered"
good start
everyone asked me if i was feeling alright
guess i looked bad
i mean jack did say i looked like death
i felt like it too
a few times i felt like going home
i felt like i couldnt handle the day
i couldnt think straight
i wanted to cry
id had enough basically
but Jo stuck it out
jack kept me going as he knew how annoyed id be at myself if i gave in and went home
he also brought me white choc chip cookies to keep me going
i came home
undressed into pajamas
bed
woke up for dinner and ate that
then got stuff ready for school
and thats my life
work and sleep
tomorrow its school and same old really
