Evening
Kinda forgot to do this yesterday!!
In the morning we did our weekly shop early as sunday shops are close for easter
later morning me, mum, Jack and Oz did some gardening
mum went home and I had lunch with Jack then I rested up for the evening ahead
I was anxious and all day had a fast heart rate
I was by myself all afternoon as Jack gamed for 4 hours with Harvey and Theo
I rang my mum, I was lonely and needed to talk to someone
I told her I didnt really want to go out, I didnt want to socialise I wanted quietness, I didnt have the energy to look happy for people and give them my best energy
she told me not to go. That if I am not feeling it, Jack would only be looking out for me all evening and not enjoy it fully himself and I wouldnt be enjoying it ether so whats the point
I told Jack I wasnt going. He seemed disappointed to be honest. But I need to stop pleasing people and look after myself.
I took him, Theo and Harvey to Matt and Brandon's house. I drove back it was a round trip of 40mins
I felt better for getting home, locking the doors and getting set up to do painting
I did 90mins of painting. I enjoyed it, put anime on the background I was a true social recluse!!
I had txted Jack to say doors were locked and Id set him a bed up on the sofa
I texted mum to say I was home, I was fine and going to do some painting
I couldnt sleep. I ached A LOT from gardening. so I ended up taking extra and falling asleep at midnight. I heard the door go at some point in the night and dropped off to sleep. Knowing if Jack wanted me he would wake me.
This morning I woke my Jack at 8:30am. He said he got in just after 1am. I made him an amazing breakfast. It was a baguette with 2 hash browns, 2 eggs, 6 slices of bacon. I made him fresh coffee and poured him fresh orange juice. I gave him paracetamol too
I revived him
he helped wash my hair then I left for my hair cut at 10:30am
like my massage - my hair cut has gone up by £5. Id love to be able to put my wage up >.>
I went to mum's and I WAS going to dye my hair pink. However I got there today and I had back ache and couldnt be bothered to sit in the chair and have my hair dyed and then have a shower etc.
I helped cut raw meat up, I sat with the girls, and I had my lunch I had taken over
I came home and I have been making a card for mum and a card for Jack
both just to say thank you for all they do and how much I love them
Its good to be appreciated
I dont need to wait for mothers day or valentines day. I will show my love and appreciation whenever the hell I want to. I will give mums to her tomorrow and Jack's I will give to him tonight ^^
That has kept me quiet all afternoon it was nice doing traditional art
tomorrow
tomorrow is easter AND my dad's 60th birthday
yup my dad is gonna be an old fart. He already looks 60++
I have put together an alpaca walk with my mum and brother as his birthday present which is in May.
We are going over around 2pm for a BBQ that I may end up cooking. Mum is making cake ^^ in the morning I have bathroom to clean but thats it really. I can probably do some art
