I didn't sleep well
I was up in the night blowing my nose
a lot -_____-
so this morning I was quite tired and could not be arsed to go park run
but knew Id get little other opportunity to do exercise today
so I got on with it and said I was just gonna jog instead of really trying
I got there and it was a lil muddy
I briefly saw mum's friends and told them that she hopes to join them
on wednesday for a walk at running club
then I set off I just took my time and didnt competitive with it
but the last stretch the part I like to RUN i started off and took over
a woman with her dog as dogs are a real pain to get past but today
there wasnt many dogs at all to my relief
anyway so when I over took her she shouted to a runner ahead
"go Nick go!!!!" like yelled it as I passed her
I worked out that Nick was this bloke with a blue top on that said Nick on the neck
so I went to pass him, not to be spiteful but just because I was running
upon passing him he suddenly sprang to life and challenged me
he started like really running so i couldnt help myself i pegged it
and beat him
yeah i was happy with that XD
i did it in 29:03 which proves I can go slower and take my time
i got home and brewed up and then bleached my eye brows, massaged my face and neck to make it look smaller as im fat and horrible and went for a shower
then quickly got ready me and mum were like headless chickens getting ready and ramming lunch down our throats all to get out the house for 12pm as we had my brother's graduation to attend
heres me i had 2 mins with the camera
as you can see fat faced, fat wrists and fat fingers
all fat and a diet is what i need
hate myself and trying not to rant to mum about it too much
she said i looked too thin at 8 stone but thats where i want to be
hate myself and my body
we got into the city centre which is stressful when we're with dad
hes incredibly hard work he truly is
like an old man already
i spotted my brother and went over to him
i took his photo with mum and dad then mum took one of me and my brother ^^
never get photos together
i look bloody awful on it tho
we hovered around inside as i was getting cold stood outside
but so many people were there
we were allowed to be seated at 1:15pm and had to be seated for 1:45pm
so many people tho to get by
my brother had been picked from the whole graduates that year to be shortlisted with 2 other people for an award.
We sat and waited for his turn to go on stage and whilst he walked up in his smart gown it was announced he''d been short listed and i took photos of him entering the stage
bless him, my heart pounded i felt so happy and proud of him as hes not had it easy
and he got the highest possible grade too
after all the certificates were handed out the awards were announced
and it turns out my brother got it
he actually got it
so he got the award of "graduate of the year 2018"
amazing
we were stunned mum was thrilled
i recorded him collecting his award
its a frame with a certificate inside mum will probably hang up some where XD
he was also given £100
after 2 hours we were allowed out thank god
and we found my brother outside
i saw my old TA tutor as well so i talked to her ^^
went to my brother then
he said he'd got to talk to press and other people because of his grade and award
so we left him
we went to the bead shop and brought some sequins that had been binned this week
then caught the bus
i was frozen i have to say
my brother phoned to say he caught the bus too so when we got to the car we waited for him
he was tired and had achy shoulders from wearing the big gown for hours
it is heavy 0.0
we came home it was 5pm
so another day i get no time to myself!
i came in and had a brew to warm through
then a hot shower i was just so cold
then i came into my room and started sewing my guinea pigs to try and relax and feel like ive actually done something for myself
its now 9pm and ive finished the sewing now just got the final pieces to do
its too late to do any drawing or japanese
but i hope to do some tomorrow
im glad i went to my brother ceremony tho
it was good to witness
hes now gone over to his tutor's house for a party would you believe
i hope he has a good night as he deserves it
tomorrow me and mum are popping to a garden centre to look at bits together
then maybe going pets at home
ive got the guinea to do and drawing
mia was on about seeing me but cant see it happening
dont get any time to myself ><
