Evening
I sat and busied myself last night, I started a bit of digital drawing. I sat down and I started thinking about my summer holidays, my summer holidays that are starting this month. A wave of anxiety just came over me. I had to cuddle Jack whilst he gamed, he offered to leave his gaming but I said I would be fine and went to play on my switch in bed
I actually slept alright last night considering Jack wasn't in bed with me, I could hear him nerding out upstairs tho.
The alarm went off and I thought "screw it Im sleeping" I think Jack could tell I wasnt getting up as usually im up as soon as the alarm goes off. I made sure he was up all I said to him was "bring Oz in, leave him and put the wheelbin out" XD That was the last of him. I mean I think he kissed my head before he left but Im not sure if I dreamed that XD
I got up in time for work but the extra hour in bed was appreciated
I was greeted by my loaf who was in the living room alone
I got ready and got on with some work. It was all art work so it was a nice morning. I laid out display paper on my kitchen floor (needed a large flat area) and drew out metre long tree roots for a display. Looks quite good up to now but what the teacher wants to put on it is only gonna ruin it T^T shes dead happy with these free resources she found online and wants up. Theyre crap and are an insult to design.
Once I had finished my work I took a break on my bed for half hour to get me out the work mindset and then mum came for lunch she was with me for a while and I said I really wanted to get out. I didnt feel like crap, I didnt feel it would do me much good to be left alone all day really, I just wanted to go out!
So mummy took me down to The Range, she got a few bits and I got stuff for Oz, a lamp for Jack as hes been wanting one to use for warhammer painting for a while now, I also got canvases which is what I went for and a few paints~
She then dropped me off home and that was enough for me. I had been out but not killed myself off. We literally went in for what we needed and didnt browse the entire shop. So happy I finally got new canvases I have 2 ideas I wanna paint. I brought 4 canvases
I chilled out with a brew and Oz then unpacked my stuff
I then decided to do some exercise, I managed 30mins and my god I was so sweaty afterwards just simply cus its so damn hot! I didnt shower cus I was having korean noodles for dinner in a hot living room so I would sweat.
Jack came home and I was finally reunited with him ^^ I did him a pizza and I had my noodles, I had sweat droplets coming off my arms like actually dripping. Wow man I sweated
We talked a bit after dinner and then I went for a much needed bath
Now I need to do my 10min of hobby time. Its 7:15pm so I have the time.
Tomorrow
school and its friday so last day of the week, I hope to put my display stuff up which I did today
I had an awful text message through today - from my GP surgery
along the lines of 'further studies have shown that people taking Pregabalin are twice as likely to suffer birth defects if pregnant. If pregnant or trying to be pregnant please contact your GP. Please continue to use your prescribed contraception'
now if i was pregnant, how F'ing scary would that text be!? that text could have caused a breakdown for some poor woman out there. I feel that should have been a telephone call, if by the receptionist even if the doctor is too busy to call, you know?
this is the second time this has happened to me where a medication has had further tests and found out even worse side effects. The first time was with Morphine (which I was prescribed at 19) I was on it for 7 years and they found out it takes years off your life/limits your life span. Yeah I had come off by the time these studies were released but I wouldnt have gone on it if I knew that!!!
Ive also got an appointment through to see a psychiatric nurse, on Tuesday. Shes actually mum's friend and has given me some of her time to talk to me about ADHD/Autism and help me fill in the ADHD/Autism form I had to get from the GP. Thats happening Tuesday morning.
my increase in antidepressant is killing my skin I have eczema on my wrists and lips and its so sore no matter what I try put on it TT^TT
