I slept pretty well
got up at 8am and after breakfast I had the house to myself
so I did 45mins of yoga which i quite enjoyed then I did 15mins of dance after a 10 mins break from yoga it felt good doing a whole hour of exercise
after my shower I had a brew with mum and Oz
I fell asleep after lunch for a quick hour, just wanted to escape feeling
took a lot of pain killers today not because im unbearable pain like i have been from nigel but simply cus i just didnt want to feel anything or think anything
i have had music on all day just so i dont have to listen to thoughts
went for a walk with mum
then I sat painting my pots, i have finished them they just need varnishing
then i can put plants in them! mum asked why i was varnishing them and i said its to protect the paint from water so the designs dont ruin.
i havent texted jack much today
i asked him to cancel the viewing we had booked on sunday
simply cus i dont want to live in the house anyway so why bother viewing it really
we havent talked about the weekend but i am unsure if i want to stay over to be honest
i will see how i feel
if i am still in the mood i have been in today and yesterday then i best out the way
i struggled to have him round me yesterday
just cus i dont want affection and touching
i just dont want to feel for a bit
gonna paint my nails tonight
i plan on doing a mushroom/toad stole design on them
i have been working a bit on my final coaster design
she is coming along well
still got plenty to do tho....
tomorrow, unsure what im doing really
