i didn't sleep but whats new
this just seems to be the way my life goes
and its wearing thin, im so tired all the damn time
to the point were im just nodding off a lot or feeling faint
I still asked for mum to wake me this morning tho
she seemed a bit better about pinks
I had an easy morning then set off the city centre when i was ready kinda thing
the whole thing was a massive effort i couldnt be doing with it but knew i needed
some gloves for this wedding and a tie for adam and a box for the cake
so I went round the shops by myself
i tried quite a few shops for gloves and no wear sold anything remotely glove like
i will tell you what they did sell tho
endless summer crap!! its sodding april! and we dont even get the weather for shorts
and bikinis! endless biknins!!
very very annoying I have to say
so I went into a store that isnt cheap and I looked at the 50+ ties they had for sale
and thinking what would suit adam best and picked him up a tie for £8
it was a slatey blue colour and plain I quite liked it
I walked to another store for a cake box and got that sorted
upon walking to my car adam was walking to my car also!
you couldnt have got more perfect timing I was well happy
so I gave him a lift home
I had txt him the night before saying I could drive him home and he wouldnt need to spend
any time with me
but today i was kinda expecting him to say "want to come in for a brew?"
but nothing
I told him when he got out the car that the cake box was in the boot he got it out
and saw there was a tie in the box
i said "i expect you to wear it saturday, see ya!" and i drove off
cus why hang around he didnt want me anyway
i got home and was doing myself some lunch
and he rang me up saying "whats this? why have you brought me a tie? i have 2 ties"
i said "cus yours are old fashioned and i dont like them"
he said "so these a new fashioned are they" being proper arsy with me
so we had a bit of a tiff on the phone over a stupid tie
i said "if i knew it was gonna cause this much of a problem i wouldnt have bothered"
i was hurt as i was shattered but went out my way to do that for him as left to him he'd look scruffy for the wedding, and its a wedding youve got to look presentable its only respectful
he said thanks and asked if i was mad at him i told him i wasnt and said i wanted my lunch
i put the phone down and started my lunch but i was too churned up and threw it in the bin
i went to bed as i knew i was gonna take my suppressed anger on someone
he had left me messages whilst i was asleep saying he was sorry
i forgave him i just wish he wouldnt be so damn stubborn
saying he refuses to wear it and i said "i will make you walk to the wedding" he said "i wont come to the wedding then" just an arse. but i forgave. i was good cus i could have had it out with him
but i couldnt see the point just cus he was being stubborn over a tie
anyone would think i was asking him to wear a pink bloody dress!
he had another trial shift tonight so maybe hes a bit stressed about all that
or maybe hes just a jerk who has gotta make it up to me
ive been quiet and tired since all that
and wrote down stuff i need for the wedding
it looks to be 70mins away anyway
Oz made me jump this morning, he had obviously slipped in when i took the girls home
gone through the kitchen, hall and up the stairs and into my room as i found him in the corner
of my room i about had a heart attack wondering what the noise was
crafty git
tomorrow i havent got any think planned other than sorting stuff out for wedding
just so damn tired but i know i wont sleep i never sleep on a yoga night
im too wired to calm down before bed
i got these in the post this week
some facial scrub and eye shadow thats got minerals and vitamins in so should
be more gentle on my eyes
