Thursday, 29 November 2018

Come on its nearly friday

Konbanwa

I went running club last night
turns out we werent running 3 miles that night
we were doing just 2
but in all honesty i found doing 2 bloody hard work
and a woman was trying to talk to me as well >.>
i cant talk and walk as it effects my breathing rhythm
but also its my tune off time my time to think about nothing
but if im talking im thinking
so in the end i decreased my speed and let her go cus she winding me up
i dont go running club to make small talk with strangers
i was quite done in afterwards 

didnt sleep great again
but much to my surprise my dad was 8 mins late getting up!! O:
should have seen him rush XD not that he neednt rush he had nothing to get for
but it was because his autistic routine was broken
things werent done by certain times in the morning
funny
i had amazing cereals too mum picked them up and i could sit and eat the box
traffic was bad this morning i got there tho on time

my morning was just a typical morning really
group work in the morning was alright 
i just dont enjoy the nursery children just brats really
coming back to class you just dont have a minute its just chaos really
lunch time i sat in the staff room in silence then did yoga in class
my body is in need of the chiropractor thats for sure
mum had kindly booked me in for an hours massage on 22nd december

the afternoon wasnt too bad i guess
my groups were nice 
and gets me out of class which is a bonus at times
after i had dismissed the children i had to go learn interactive music in the staffroom with the head TA it went fine and we were finished for 4pm much to my surprise
so i can now teach interactive music and im down to start it tomorrow 
i can give it a go i guess
kids dont know if youre winging things

i came in and had a brew
sat with Oz too offered him cereal but he didnt want it so i ate it
i was annoyed at myself as i robbed a biscuit from the staffroom today and i shouldnt
need to cut back man
but it was white chocolate
i need to have more restraint 
im weighing myself on saturday as usual anyway
probably put even more weight on as usual

tomorrow its effing friday thank god for that cus jesus im ready to see the back of that place but i know school looks in the horizon im never truly free of it
but i have a decent weekend to look forward to 
just gotta get tomorrow done
i dont like working in nursery as i have to on a friday til lunch and no group time ether in the morning i hate it its just crowd control and being stood outside in the cold really too
but once its done its done
earning money isnt even making me happy
as i have nothing to spend it on
and i dont like the job
so why do i go?

im off to yoga in a minute anyway
should be good 
and i best be able to tune off 
and tonight my god do i hope i sleep
ive been taking things to help sleep but its not working
tired -_____-
just got tomorrow to do
come on Jo