Evening
I had a milk hot chocolate last night! it was white and very sweet ^^
but cus Jack faffs a lot we didnt get into bed til 10:45pm
I was shattered T^T
I got up in the night needing a drink and a wee. mouth was so damn dry but I managed to get back to sleep luckily. I know Jack hasnt been sleeping well due to hayfever. He is trying not to sneeze loudly in bed but his sneezes still makes the whole bed rock. But I dont say anything. I hoping my hayfever isnt too bad this year. Im sure its made worse at mum's due to the guinea pigs
So this morning was my first morning of getting up at 6am for yoga!
it was actually a nice way to start the day and Jack said - surprisingly - that he preferred to get up earlier as it meant he had more time and not rushing.
I then wrote down my 3 mindful things
3 things I would like to get done today + 3 ways I'd like to be/feel
yoga and mindful is all to help my anxiety, i figured I wouldnt be getting any mental health help any time soon so I have been researching ways to help myself.
we set off for school, as we were getting closer to school i told Jack that I wanted to go school whereas last week I couldnt face going to school. So thats a step in the right direction huh, and on the way home I called in the corner shop for leeks and garlic bread
then I came home and had a cup of tea as I felt tired and so thirsty
the whole damn day I have been super thirsty and my mouth tastes like death. I am putting this down to yesterdays jab as I dont usually suffer like this
mia came over at 9am for a dog walk and I didnt get home til 10:30am the dogs were dragging their feet and yeah just took us a long time to cover not much ground but good to see her and chat to her. She says I might be able to see her on wednesday for another walk depending if she decides to take the day off work XD
I got back and went to bed, I was tired!!! I woke up 2 hours later to the sound of the school behind my fence, it was lunch time apparently!
I got up and had my lunch which was good it was just a bit lonely, so I rang my mother
she came over for 90mins for a quick catch up and a cup of tea which was nice
then she left me so I could get some drawing done!
took me ages to draw umbreon's outline just cus I tried doing it a different way but I didnt like it really so I redrew it.
my brother rang me to see how I was as I had txt him this morning, he seems fine. I am totally fine weirdly.
Then as I hadnt heard form Jack I figured he was coming home late so I thought I would have a 4pm brew by myself, I brewed up at 3:50pm and had a piece of fruit loaf then jack came home at 4:10pm typically. He had forgotten to txt me to say he was coming home >.> but still he had come home on time which was nice.
We got on with dinner, I made fish pasta from scratch it was really good but made jack far too much >< he was so full >< we were both sweating after we ate XD Jack washed up and I had an early bath as I didnt need to do any exercise as I had done 15mins of yoga and a 90min walk so I think I am ok on the exercise front! Jack had the bath after me which meant we both had pretty free evenings! He is gaming by himself but Harvey says he might come on. I might talk too whilst I am drawing, I keep popping downstairs and putting a layer of nail varnish on in between things
I spoke to Jack about my anxiety, that basically it makes me anxious going to be 'late' as I worry about not getting enough sleep for work and being tired and not being able to get through the day and being able to concentrate. When I am not at school I dont worry AS much however I still dont appreciate being in bed late. At the moment I am not at school but I am still waking up to school hours so I can go with Jack to school so I am still going without sleep. Jack might be able to live off 7 hour a day - but I certainly can not. So I said I would like to put that into place next week but he says we cant start it this week if it is to help my health. I feel bad and selfish tho as it means less gaming for him and he cant sleep when I can, but he says he will just play on his switch in bed. He seemed fine about it. I said he can stay up later on friday and saturdays. Also it does you good to have routine at night. I know I need this. I think we are trying it tonight so he is finishing gaming at 9:30pm >< I do feel bad....
tomorrow
nothing planned yet, just going to see how I feel. I might touch up the walls were the carpet fitters took chunks out my wall. I could pop over to mum's for more of my craft stuff as well I guess.
