I'm so tired ><
Once again I did not sleep well -___-
in fact the paralyze dream had begun
but thanks to my brother still awake on his laptop the sudden
noise of it woke me up
but it kept pulling me in so i decided to read for a bit to stay awake
i have noticed i always wake up from it between 1:30am and 2am
when I woken last night it was only 1am
anyway last night i was not happy
basically i dont sit with alice and millie at night
i just sit with tiffin
simply because the girls never sit well at night
but they are fine during the day
random i cant work it out
but i decided last night after yoga id sit with them as it had been a while since
they came out
from the moment they were on my knees Alice was spinning around
and squeaking
ok number 1 she was spinning round which shows they are not happy and comfortable (reminded me of how popuri used to be actually)
number 2 alice NEVER speaks
so it was different behaviour for her
i took them home after like 1 minute
they were fighting to go home which was odd
i got tiffin out and sat with him
upon taking tiffin home i noticed alice was sat in a ball on some hay - she doesnt usually do this
so al in all i was concerned
as i am still scarred from when we lost Popuri
she was different during the day then in the morning mum told me she'd died in the night!!!
so all night all i could think about was alice
all things went through my head
"is there something wrong inside like popuri?"
"millie is too young and lovely to be by herself, we'd have to get another pig"
"i dont want to lose her"
mum said she'd been going through the same thoughts
come morning i could hear mum shouting millie
not alice
i hung around upstairs not wanting to face my fears
in the end i went down and looked under the igloos and there she was with spinach in her mouth
shes totally fine
im over the moon with relief
im so glad
perhaps i read to much into it
but like i said im scarred from suddenly losing popuri
today i cleaned my room
went for a bloody cold windy walk with mum
had lunch
made some biscuits!
theyre dutch biscuits Nienke and Anouk gave me the recipe for
it was the first time i tried it
theyre really nice and christmasy
usually they are suppose to be in little round disks
but me being me that wasnt creative enough
so i made guinea pig ones, rabbits, stars, gingerbread men
they came out well ^^
i made 32 in total
so i took 4 rabbits over to taras for her to share with James
i went to taras for a good catch up for 2 hours
we sat with her bunnies
i managed to catch nutmeg but rocky was too quick for me!
here is my lovely chino figure i got the other day!
i love it!!!
tomorrow is christmas eve~
oh and my twine came today
so i hung some across the top of the girls's cage and hung carrot slices from it
they loved it! so they must have had to go and reach on their back legs
gave them some stimulation
i might take photos
