Evening
my god i did not wanna go this morning
felt like i was doing 6 days not 5
i sat with my Ozwald this morning
he helped cheer me up
school was stressful
just a bit full on
i got my christmas display done tho
but i was spoken to rudely in front of a class of year 12 by head of biology
having a go at me for giving her the wrong practical
so i quickly whipped up the one she did want
wheeled it through then she reluctantly told me she had put down the wrong practical
so i wasnt at fault it was her fault
but the way she spoke to me
and followed me into the prep room demanding it NOW in front of jack and julia
it was disgusting and im not sure how i didnt snap at her
she thanked me but didnt apologise
jack and julia were shocked
its not professional what she did to me
so i think im gonna talk to head of science on monday about it
cus it cant go on like this
i am gonna snap one day
i went home crying cus of it and cus id simply had enough
i got in and didnt sit with oz and and brew how i usually do
instead i went straight to bed for 90 mins
i just needed to not be here for a while
think im alright now
ive seen ozwald and had dinner and been for a walk and had a shower
so ive chilled out a bit more now
and now im gonna sit with oz and go bed!
i must say ive thought about death a lot this last week
not sure if im low or not or just got a lot on my mind
but it does feel like it would be easier on me and on every one if i wasnt here
i just feel like giving up then my mind wonders to 'how would i do it?'
yeah depressing and i try to stop it but sometimes it really feels like
it would make sense if the world was lacking me
mum told me today there was a freak accident in chesterfield that someone was
driving along and a big tree just fell, crushing the car and killing the driver
and her 16 year old daughter. just tragic
but i thought, would i want death to be granted to me so easily?
why were they taken and not me?
dont know
not sure whats up with me
i dont think id ever act on it
but ive told mum and jack
anyway enough about death it is officially the weekend!
and Jo is pleasing no one!
im crafting and doing art
and dancing or doing some form of exercise as i can never forget to do that >.>
but yeah im doing what i wanna do
