Last night was bad
literally the worst night for a while
I had gone to bed trying to sleep but found my pain just wouldnt allow it
i am in dire need of a massage or something
so I waited and waited until my dad came to bed last at 11:15pm
I went straight downstairs and had a pain killer - the one I am NOT coming off
I then found a bit of energy to do some yoga but I was exhausted
I had a hot chocolate and at 1am I went to bed
I laid there trying to sleep but it just wasnt happening
I was refusing to get up and take the pain killer i am trying to come off
but by 3am I still had not slept so I got up and took TWO of those pain killers
had some cereal, read, and just basically did everything i did not want to do
but why suffer i had suffered enough
i was weeping as i laid alone in pain
by 4am I was in bed and did fall asleep
to wake up at 8:30am so I had 4 hours sleep -____-
I got up and went to help clean pets out
I did my pet duty
and I was about to go for a walk to get out the house i had cabin fever
when adam txt me to say i could come up if i liked
so I spent 15 minutes rounding Oz up and took him to adams at 11am
he had an hour and did a massive wee on their wooden floor -____-
I brought him home
I drove me and adam to a town and we had lunch
he brought lunch and i had soup
we walked through the town and went into a few stores
it was very bleak and cold outside
i picked up the bits i needed
adam later told me that a weird guy was following us round the shops
he followed us round 3 stores well he followed ME
i didnt notice
well i noticed him when he leaned right in front of me to grab something off the shelf i was just looking at which i thought rude and gave him space but i didnt realise he staked us
weirdo glad i had adam there
we went to adams house for a brew
i did his mums nails
then we went upstairs
he offered to massage my neck and shoulders that really hurt
he had ago but i stopped him cus it hurt and i couldnt deal with anymore pain
i came home at 6pm
my family went pub so i did some dancing
then showered and my family brought back pizza
which was nice but i didnt eat it all and my brother polished off what i didnt want XD
tonight i am taking a sleeping tablet
which will make me a zombie in the morning and make everything taste rank all day
but i cant have another night like last night
its relentless
not sure what im doing tomorrow as of yet
should be seeing adam
I got this hoodie in the post today
for £6
