Didn't do my diary yesterday! It kinda fell off the page some what
anyway still not sleeping great
but yesterday I attended school til lunch
it went fine it was easy really and i always enjoy my time there
from there I went home and I saw Adam in the afternoon
we went round a couple of shops and we sat and had a brew in a cafe
as we havent done that in a long time
because of me
then i came home for dinner
went back out to mia's house were i stayed til 10:20pm
my body was feeling tired but i knew it was another case for mental head
i had a good yesterday anyway
Today I woke up at 8am
by 8:10am I was cleaning my pets out
just wanted to get in there before mum could beat me to it
its a job i can do so why she does it for me sometimes i dont know
I wasnt too bad, mentally, this morning
but it has crept up on me as the day went along
i was laying on my bed and i could feel pain and tiredness trying to set in
and i was willing it away as i dont want it all back, why its kinda vanished in the first place i have no clue but i dont want it back. Even if i am having a hard time adjusting to being able bodied.
so i pushed adam away told him i was moping on my bed
he got his dad to give him a lift over -_____-
we sat had a brew we sat with the girls, millie sucking up to him
we went out to pets at home for some guinea food
went for a short walk and i saw baby ducklings like the size of hamsters so cute
must be that time of year huh.
we went to his house for 20mins as he showed me his new pokemon cards
and his dad gave me some sport sunglasses he no longer wanted so i can wear them when i start doing my park runs with mummy
i came home and had dinner with my family like as in eating what they are eating
i had stomach ache anyway so i couldnt see the harm in it really
mum had made cake also and i ate that too!
probably regret it when ive got stomach ache keeping me up til 2am
i started doing a daily job ive chosen to do in order to give me more responsibility and helping others ive got to do the pots after dinner each day. today it was started!
Earlier today I drew out a design for mum's new cushion as she wants a new cushion cover for the living room, this must be cushion number 3 ive done now
but i thought id give her a guinea design over patchwork triangles so i drew a piggie today
sweet huh
its gonna be orange and white, took about 5mins to draw if that XD
tomorrow...tomorrow
my friend or what feels more like ex-friend is getting married
a girl ive known for 24 years and was very very good friends with and lived next door too
but sadly she met her partner and shes become a shell of the person she is now. I havent seen her in over a year despite her living 15mins away now.
Shes invited mine and mia's family to her wedding reception. thats wedding reception not wedding. I refuse to go as i dont support it or want it for her. id be going for all the wrong reasons. So were not going as none of my family like her partner or want her to marry him. So were not going. Mia im not so sure of she says she was gonna have a rethink as i only told her yesterday that im not gonna go. were also not gonna go yoga ether.
i dont see her anymore but i still care for her and want more for her. so i feel a bit sad about tomorrow.
