Evening
Jo did an all-nighter
yup did not sleep a wink last night
I went over to jack's and we had a hot chocolate and biscuits and talked with theo
and harvey was online so we talked with him too but i was shattered so didnt want to stay up
but i could tell jack wasnt right some how
like he was just off and despite me asking numerous times "you ok?" "whats up"
he wouldnt come out with it but could tell he wanted to
we went to bed and in the end i said "what ever is troubling you is troubling me. you tell me not to bottle stuff up so out with it"
and thats when it all kicked off at 11:15pm
he cried and everything
his worries are the corona virus starting up again basically
i said "what is the actual main worry here tho?"
he said "i dont want you getting sick"
so i was the concern
then he was also upset about driving - i guess that one coming
i said "and whats troubling you most about that?"
he said "having an accident with you in the car and you being hurt"
so me again
*sigh* im a big girl i can look after myself
he worries far far too much
so we talked it out
and i said to him he didnt contact me the whole of tuesday and he said "cus i was hoping to txt and to be able say 'jo i rang the driving school up' but i didnt"
so i said "so instead of asking for help, you buried your head in the sand about driving school and giving me a text"
so it churned me up a bit cus i love jack and its not nice seeing anyone you love, in tears
so he fell asleep after all that
i on the other hand couldnt
i was in a lot of pain anyway so i was extra sensitive on his bed
tried to get to get to sleep and tried to get comfy
then a couple outside literally yelling their guts off at each other, if youre gonna have domestic at least have it in the house not on a main street at midnight.
i got up at 1am as they wouldnt shut up
then drunks wondered up and down shouting, people getting out of taxis at all hours
i sat upstairs having a brew and biscuits and did some japanese
i tried to sleep but yeah wasnt happening
at 5am i crawled back to bed but still felt really uncomfortable but tried to stay
then around 6am i could feel myself drifting off and then the council service bin men came and sounded like they were riding the bins down the street
it woke jack up and he looked at me
i said "i havent actually been asleep"
he cuddled me and i tried to get comfy but couldnt
he said "lets get up"
i said "its only 6:30 you dont need to get up ill get up by myself"
but no, despite not doing mornings, he did get up
i said as we at a really early breakfast "did you not notice me gone?"
he said "i did but thought you were in the toilet and fell asleep after that thought"
didnt hear any of the noises outside he sleeps really well
so i was shattered and looked like death
school was alright tho i just painted
saw hannah and luke again
we came back to jacks and had soup he had made then i poured a bath with those salts
it was so nice
i got dressed and was prepared to keep going but jack said he didnt want me driving like that, i guess i must have looked back so he made me have a nap
we got up and had a brew then i came home
went straight to the garden to find my lad
we fussed each other
he has been such a good boy, hes been eating ^^ normal poos and seems happy again
im soooooooooooooooooooooo happy, grateful and relieved
nice to have my lad back on form
im about to go sit with him actually
i did a walk with mum after helping her with the dinner
tomorrow mum is seeing her friend so i will probably just exercise by myself
and not sure after that
im ringing up the driving school for jack as he cant bring himself to do it
which slightly annoyed me as i could have rang on monday!
honestly
ive got my magazine for the decopauge just no table
but no rush there
