I was drawing til 9:50pm last night
didn't realise the time
I got 1 picture finished and 1 in pencil ready for pen
Drew wolves really
Last night I didn't sleep well at all
I woke up at 12am from a nightmare that had me almost empty my stomach
i felt so sick and sweaty when I woke up
It was that dream of being raped. but I have no idea why I suffer with this nightmare as I have never been sexually abused so why have this dream? Every time I screamed out or moved another hand would pin me down to the ground until I was flush on my back exposed. I shouted out "I can't do any of this im already taken" to which a voice out of no where replied "then maybe he needs to learn to share you" I woke up at that point, got up for a wee to break myself out the dream state sleep
from there I woke up every 2 hours -_____-
This morning I was going to take photos of myself
and I did get semi-ready for that but adam txt me to say his work might need
him in earlier so i decided to go up earlier and sod the make-up and photos
id rather have company than take photos
got to his house and we sat whilst he watched the last of the cricket - shoot me now
we went up to the deli for our lunch as usual
but what wasnt usual was the fact of our county's MP was in there -____-
god help me now
he is so slimy i hate him sorry well i hate all MPs
it is "small business day" here apparently and so he was making his way round the independent businesses as come on its a chance for him to have his photo taken!
we came out both saying we felt sick and needed to shower XD we then found him a few shops down having his photo taken with the owner!!!! sickening!!!
we had lunch and then I did his mum's nails the flamingos came out really well actually ^^
I played on Okami-den for a bit as adam watched the bloody football
i turned it off and got bored quite frankly
and then frustration kicks in and then my mood can plummet so I left at 2:30pm
got home and grabbed my ipod that only has battery these days for 10 songs :(
I went for a walk by myself seeing as it wasn too cold today it was 6c and no winds :)
my ipod died tho >< i really really need a new one its 7 years old would you believe
I got home had a brew with the girls on my knee
then took them home and had Oz in my room who was happy bunny
I opened my parcels from Korea and I got my lip oil finally and I got my yellow eye shadow
cant wait to try them! I got a free facial sheet mask despite ordering 14 the other day
i cant help but wonder if someone is laughing at me XD
I finished off the wolf picture and I will photograph it tomorrow
they're ok I guess~
I got Mia a personalised christmas decoration for one of her christmas presents
its got written on it "first christmas in our new house Mia & Rob"
thought it would be a nice little gift for her :)
Not sure what im doing tomorrow
been invited over to adams for dinner as per usual but what to do during the day i am not sure
i'll probably do photos in the morning and then see him
it might be Oz and a walk maybe cus not brought Oz up to their house for a while
but not sure yet
Adam liked my phone I guess
already could work it quicker than I could >< how depressing is my life XD
Im getting there with it
kinda....XD
