Evening
My brother text me at 9am, screenshotting my cousin's facebook, that she had gotten engaged! good for her I guess! shes been together for a year? he wants her to have children. so I knew she was gonna ether get engaged by the end of the year or knocked up. theres a video online of the proposal....why? why would you put that for all to see!? the proposal happened in a restaurant in front of a load of people - watching - then clapped afterwards. I told Jack about this and I was like "i would want the floor to swallow me whole at that point. I would hate the attention, and the clapping? Im not American!!" But good for her I just hope its right for her, her relationship worries me a lil at times. But what do I know. Wonder if he asked my uncle's permission XD
So last night, I couldnt sleep. I just laid there wide awake but tired. It sucked. At midnight I got up for pain killers and fruit loaf. went back to bed to continue laying there. The whole evening was stuffy and I felt like I couldnt even sweat to cool down.Then at 2am the first rumble started.
we had 30mins of thunder and lightening and heavy down pour
I was just there watching in the living room, wondering if Oz and the girls were ok. I was also wondering "just how the hell is jack sleeping through this!?" at 2:10am a bigggg rumble and flash was above the house - that one woke Jack
he found me and we talked a little bit, I got a bit teary but I think that was out of tiredness. I was upset about going school and my fear of burning out. Year and year, term after term of burn out.
we went to bed and I fell asleep around 3am. Yup a whole 3 hours sleep to go to work on
I was kinda ok when I got up the in the morning, like i have been to work if far worse condition!
me and jack talked about maybe telling the science department that I am sick - I mean it should be obvious to them by now! but not tell them what is up with me as no one will understand anyway. But to make them aware, and that Jack will structure my day so I dont burn out. He gets me the most so he knows what I can do.
work was ok I guess, bit dull and slow but I got it done. Mum was at my house cleaning my windows which was so nice of her. so she was here when I got home. We had lunch together. I spoke to her about telling the department about me and she thought it was a good idea. so jack is gonna tell everyone in the department meeting wednesday after school - glad I will be home to miss it!
I went to bed for a good hour to try catch up on my sleep
I got up and did 45 mins of yoga, my legs KILL after yesterdays leg and booty work out...jesus it was only 12 minutes long but I feel like i have been riding a horse in the night. squats, too many squats
I havent done a whole lot since then really. jack came home and we had food we both groomed Oz together - he loved it, had a bath, and then I looked at clothes online, then doing diary. might get round to some drawing who knows
I kinda just want my bed at this point!
oh heres the new plant I got yesterday, cute right~ I put it out the rain for a water~
tomorrow
school, just school really :/
