didnt sleep that well
woke up at 5:45am refused to get up and dropped off to sleep
to have a dream where id lost my ozwald
woke up at 6am to my alarm thank god
love my ozwald
school was alright
i couldnt be bothered with all if im honest
id had enough
i was just so damn tired and drained
but the day wasnt too busy luckily enough
I heard jack say to julia "we need to do your probation form today"
i said "careful julia he has a way of putting you down"
i told him about how i felt about him putting me down for my attendance
he defended himself i said "my its me being sensitive about my illnesses. still doesnt stop me from feeling crap about myself" and walked off
at another stage when julia wasnt in the room with us
i told him about how i went to bed by myself at his the other night
how he couldnt not even play pokemon just for 1 night
that i had cuddled more with flump than i had him
he said "i thought you would have fallen asleep"
any excuse
i said "its crap jack and really makes me want to stay over again"
he said "im sorry ill try harder in the future"
i said "yeah we'll see"
he said "well you can stay over saturday and wednesday"
i said "i cant stay over weds as its the science christmas due, and im not staying for the meal"
he said "i can come away, id rather spend the night with you"
i said "jack theres the whole xmas holiday for sleep overs, go to the meal"
secretly trying to get out of staying over at his
told him i dont want to go to the christmas party tomorrow
just dont want to go
the venue looks crap, i cant park so i have to wait for a bus in the cold
and id have to stay at jacks dump of a flat
all in all im out
he said "do i have to drag you there?"
i know he wants to go and hes welcome to go, just with out me
i left bang on time
got home, got into comfy clothes, got into bed
done
i was so dead
i havent done anything since i got up apart from eat
i havent done any exercise
i need to but im so drained its unreal
i might try and run through two dances then get Oz
tomorrow
jo is dying her hair pink!
looking forward to it :3
and im also putting up the xmas decorations ^^
and also getting out of my xmas party
here is some xmas guinea pigs i made for a friend
travelled all the way to australia ^^
theyre cute, my brother and mum liked them
got more stuff people want making before christmas....
