I just didn't go on my laptop yesterday ><
So yesterday I got up and got the downstairs all in order
I went for a walk
and then got ready to see adam at 11am
we sat and talked I turned round on the sofa to yell something
in his face as per usual and as I did my jaw went with an almighty crack
....was not impressed
this is the 3rd time in 2 years its done this and it takes ages to go back
fully into place it took i believe 2 weeks for it go back in last time
we went up for food which i wasnt kicking a fuss up about
i had beans on toast but struggled eating it as i couldnt put pressure
on my teeth like to clamp down
so it made chewing painful to say the least
we went back to his house and i did his mum's nails
afterwards baring in mind it was 1:15pm and we were leaving at 1:30pm
adam said "you gonna tell my parents about your mental condition?"
i know i said id do it that day but we had what 10 mins?
plus the fact his dad was painting the kitchen and i do want people to look
at me when im baring my soul
so i told him no and he wasnt too impressed but could see my reasoning
we left for taras
we started playing bucket of doom which wasnt too bad not as good as i first thought
then we talked, saw her cute hammy
we went on her wii and play sonic and mario at the olympics
which made my joints hurt but i didnt announce that
i won anyway XD
we had dinner which tara had kindly made for us
she made pulled pork, stuffing, chips and cobs
it was really good
then we said me and tara would finally play just dance
and the boys would play on the PS4 on some car game
me and tara hadnt even left the room and they totally blanked us talking
about cars!!!
sod em we walked into the other room and cracked just dance out
just dance came out many years ago
ive only played it once and that was when it first came out
i was shockingly bad like terrible bad and the friend i was playing with was
soooooo much better than me it seemed pointless to even play
but last night i not only kept pace with tara - the girl who lives on just dance -
but i actually beat her a few times too!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i wasnt doing it for points as i was too focused on the dance to look at
how many points we each had
so i was really shocked but totally LOVED every minute i truly did
as i was dancing with someone and it was fun
tara who loves those games was over the mood that she found someone who matched
her and really enjoyed it as much as she
the only issue i had was my other personality
the night times become the 'night shift' so i have real issue with keeping a lid on her
and when theres stimulation from others and there was dancing and competition
yeah i went into the back seat and it felt like someone else was me
we came back into the room were james and adam were
james said "the energy difference of you two, tara looks drained and Jo looks, well, high...you two havent been doing cocaine through there have you?"
i was totally climbing the walls
i tried to play fight with adam in the end he restrained me and it did help ground me a bit
i said sorry when i had calmed down somewhat
tara and james said i had nothing to apologise for and that tara had seen me hyper before like when i'd had sugar rushes. they dont know whats up with me
we left at 8pm
i went to take adam home and he said
"are you gonna tell my parents?"
and i did tell him that i would do it after we'd been taras but i didnt think i was gonna be THAT late so i said "no as its late ive got to get home, shower and sit with Oz AND calm down before bed"
he had a bit of hissy fit at me saying that I said I was gonna do it and they need to know yadda yadda yadda. I told him id see him one evening for a walk and do it then
yeesh
its finding a free point that both his parents are there and we have enough time for questions as i wasnt gonna just dump it on em and leave
adam can be dim witted at times
i got home showered and sat with Oz
saw my parents for an hour then went to bed
theyd had an alright time in Norfolk
today i woke up at 8am
i had managed to sleep as i took sleeping stuff and pain killers
wasnt taking any chances in not being able to calm down
i did some dancing for half hour
then i got my wii out to see what was what
my wii was made in 2006 so one of the first i believe
i was hoping to find out what software was on it so i could play the disk that allows you to play japanese games on it.
i didnt get that far as a piece in the back where you plug cables into has literally perished and doesnt work. so i grabbed it up and took it to CEX and asked if it could be mended
you can buy a wii these days for £20 - £30 believe it or not
to repair mine would cost £48
i walked out not knowing what to do
ive never had a broken console before heck my PS1 still functions!!
i was gutted in a way but £48 is a lot of money to me
but do i want someone elses wii?
i came home and went for a walk
feeling quite crap about myself that schools have gone back and im still on the outside not making a difference or having a proper job
just dont have work colleagues or a life outside the house
and its sad
im lost and goalless
i came back and had a brew watching Nastume Yuujin Chou Roku
then I caught up online
and 4pm came round where id be going for my first chiropractic appointment
i got there and she was running late as usual
i was the last appointment so it was dead there
she got me doing a few things to see my symmetry and flexibility and strength
i told her my jaw was out of place and hurts to eat
i had all sorts done to me but she said she wouldnt go crazy because of all my health issues
by the end of the session she said "i did more than i was going to"
i was glad tho as its not cheap and i can deal with anything thrown at me
she went to crack my back by making me breathe in, then out then she'd press her palm hard down on my spine. it cracked in 5 places at the same time
it surprised her as she said "It usually cracks once or not all, that was big"
my reaction "that was gross!!" and laughed
she found my reaction strange considering i crack my joints but i told her
never has someone else done it for me and done so many joints in one hit so to speak
i had her finger in my mouth i kid you not, to stretch the muscle for my jaw
she cracked my knees without meaning to
and afterwards i could move my spine so much easier i have even more flexibility
im going back the day after france
i got home and felt cold and crippled
the lady said that usually people feel the after effects the next day but because of the coniditions i have i could feel them the same day
boy can i feel them, jesus like being hit by a car but it feels like things are sitting right
i told my parents i had acupuncture needles and her finger in my mouth
in the 10+ years my dad has been seeing her never has he had her finger in his mouth XD
he says ive raised the bar
i had a hot shower and ive got heat packs covering me as im cold and achy
got to get comfy in my bed and sleep yet!
got to do some japanese today as i didnt do any yesterday as i didnt have the time
id like to do some drawing
tomorrow
seeing as i havent done or got much for adam for his birthday which next monday
i thought id do something for him
so ive told him im taking him somewhere he doesnt know where tho muahahaha
im taking him to an antique shop which has 3 floors of sodding boring smelly antiques
as my sad boyfriend likes british antiques T^T
ive been once before, not my thing but theres a cafe for a treat afterwards
so im taking him there as im hoping he will enjoy it
he might have been before but i know hes not been for long while
and he should enjoy it ill try not to moan too much XD
the manga i got last week~
got some good wolf pictures in it i want to draw~
