I didn't sleep well again
had to get up and sat with tens machine on whilst watching videos on a tablet
fun times
i fell asleep around 3am and woke up at 7:20am
so ive had 7 hours sleep over 48 hours
whens this gonna end
i hurt so much
and im so tired
this morning i somehow motivated myself for a run
i did 30 mins of yoga before i left
i enjoyed it as even tho it was a lil chilly the sun was out it was good
and for the first time this year i ran through the woods!
i LOVE running through the woods i truly do
leaping over branches and the like~
i wasnt even out of breath ether surprisingly
i came back and showered
then i got ready to see Jack
i got into the city centre and hour early so i could have a look round
just for something to do really
i picked up a nail varnish and an eye shadow
two good brands like loreal paris from poundshop!
cant wait to give em a go
then i met jack
we did his house shopping which wasnt too much as it goes
we had a hot chocolate
then we sat in a different pub for a change and we talked
he stayed with me til my bus came
it had gotten cold and it was a 25min wait but i was grateful he stayed with me as i was robbing his heat i was so damn cold and i was more layered up than he was!
i got home and was in time for dinner
then i sat with Oz
then i could feel myself start to fray
as the evening creeps on i know the night is baring down on me
and its another night by myself
a long night alone, in pain
and its so depressing
so i went to my mum for a hug and started to crumble
later i talked to her about stuff
i didnt get too upset just a few stray tears
im just tired is all, not sleeping and being constantly in pain is so tiring
dad annoyed me this morning with his comments about my sleep
he knows nothing and doesnt understand anything and it infuriates me as he thinks hes always in the right and that youve done wrong
if he says anymore i will literally brick his balls
my nails last night
theyre ok but not as good as last weeks
tomorrow i will exercise in the morning
and go to school after lunch
i listened to some songs the other day i havent heard since my college days, bands such as Alice Nine and i was surprised how much i could understand compared to those days
and today i went through some anime music and i forgot all songs i used to enjoy
one has just made it into my drawing playlist "Aka no Seijaku"
its good to look back on music and its always always jpop with me~
