ahhh Atsui ne~~ Atatakai
Last night I started my new anti-depressiants
these must be my 7th type I have tried
and disappointingly I had to take 3 >.>
for someone who is trying to reduce their medication and going from taking
just one anti-depressiant to 3 is a kick to the gut >.>
but anyway I did feel drowsy and I went to bed at a 'normal' time of 10pm
I woke up at 12 and fell asleep til 1:30am which is when my back
proper ached from Nigel and I needed pain relief!!!
I was up then til 3am just reading manga and eating cereal same old really
and I fell asleep til 8am then
This morning even tho I had still had disturbed sleep I didnt feel shattered
usually I wake up and come 10am Im struggling to keep my eyes open
but maybe its because I slept deeper that I didnt feel so dead
ether way I was happy about that
and got on with my day
by 10:30am I had
cleaned out my pets
hovered my car
washed my car
had a shower
had breakfast
I was on it this morning~
I txted adam to ask what he wanted to go after the gym today
as it was probably England's first hot day of 2018
I was thinking a walk near water but mum said it was full of the little flies in the air that appear
this time of year as thats how it was yesterday so i skipped that idea and we went for a walk round a park and walked round a few shops and i drove to his house
all day i have been a bit off...
like i see the negative straight away in things where there probably could not even be negativity so ive had to watch my mouth today otherwise i could be very rude i think and maybe nasty too
when we got to adams his dad had just come in and i knew we couldnt not talk to him so i sat and talked for a bit but i havent been in a talkative mood all day so i found it an effort and thats no fault of anyones but myself. in the end the pair of them started talking about sport so i walked off as i find it so boring listening to sport.
adam turned on Okami as he knew I wanted to play on it
so I started playing on that whilst i think he played on his phone im not entirely sure as i sat in front of him and zoned out in front of the game. i told him id had enough of playing and he turned it off and flicked through facebook, i patiently waited and just rested a minute on his bed then he went on this game on his phone and started playing that so i turned over and was just zoning out waiting for him and then he said "this boss is gonna take a while" I said "im gonna go home if youre playing that" it was 4:45pm and I was planning on leaving at 5pm anyway
he didnt want me to go and i could see he felt bad and said "i was playing on it thinking you were resting" i said "no i was waiting for you, i dont know why you cant wait til i have gone home"
so I went home cus i have better things to do
i told mum I had been in a bit of a mood all day
and i sat outside in the garden in the sun reading my kindle with a brew to try relieve some tension
mum said i blame myself too much and that im not entirely at fault
i dont think id been home 20mins before adam txted saying he loves me and i txted back saying i love you too kinda thing, not wanting to look like a complete bitch. he said "i miss you" and i could have bitten heads off with that sentence. i said "im sure youre fine youre usually are" but i could have said a lot worse. and he said "i still miss you tho" i didnt txt back.
hes on about seeing me tomorrow but i will see how i am first
patience with stuff is thin today for some reason
the stuff i put on ebay finishes today!
The total payment came to £44.02! so i hope it was worth doing but of course i have postage to pay out for and ebay fees also. but i bet I will come away with £10 i hope anyway!
i will post stuff on friday or even tomorrow if everyone pays up
heres something i got off ebay the other week
its a new bodyline skirt for £10 its beautiful and high quality i love it!
the straps can be tied in a bow or taken off
tomorrow i have got yoga and thats it really
i wonder how sleep will go tonight
the new japanese compression socks are great!
