Evening
Ah last night was not good....
We played pokemon together and stuff and I felt tired and watched Jack play
He turned his switch off and went to sleep
I tried but couldnt sleep so I got up, took pain killers, came to bed but by this point Jack had 'man spread' he was on my side of the bed!!! So I tried to push him but he didnt budge or wake up T^T so unfair how deep that guy sleeps. So I crawled up and tried to sleep. He moved and so I moved over and then he spread again, crushing me! then elbowed me in the head. I decided at this point I just wasnt meant to sleep normally like all the other humans and so got up
from 12 - 3:30am I as drawing for school. My thoughts had taken a turn for the worse, pain killers were full of air. So I figured if I did my work during the night then I can sleep during the day
so I got this one done during the night for the space topic
I came to bed at 3:30 and I fell asleep pretty fast
I woke up to my alarm and I think in my half sleep like state I just declared to the world that I couldnt do it anymore, I had had enough. I just wanted to die. Jack cuddled me and almost looked in tears
I told him about my night, he said I should have woken him....
I took him to work but said I wasnt gonna pick him up too I just needed rest
so after dropping him off - made him late as I was crying this morning despite me saying I didnt want to cry this week but I think it was sheer exhaustion that made me cry. I came home and went to bed for 2 hours and felt more myself for that
I got up and worked, made some biscuits, mum came over for an hour and I had my lunch then I did some more drawing, fell asleep for an hour and did some more drawing and got this one finished for the light topic
I did a few things round the house to help Jack as hes been doing my job all day so I did some of his chores but he told me to rest
he came home and after a sit and catch up we had dinner
then I had a bath, and just sitting with a face mask whilst I do my diary. we are gonna watch anime, play pokemon and attempt sleep. I havent exercised today and I havent stopped eating. I decided I would rest and nourish my body in the hopes that I will be ok tomorrow for school as I have my biology lesson and doing a practical!!!!
but god knows what the night will bring
please please let me sleep, I am VERY tempted to take sleeping tablets if I am honest. I will talk to Jack see what he thinks
