I hadnt slept well
i had my 'paralyze' dream to which i eventually woke up
heart thumping and sweating
its a dream that has got stronger over the last 4 years
usually im paralyzed whilst struggling to escape the dream
last night a strange voice left my mouth but i was unable to make out the words
this dream just continues to get stronger
never has that happened before
it felt body possession
god i sweating
maybe i do need to talk to someone XD my dreams arent normal
when my depression is bad
like the other week
i was dreaming of watching suicide, i dreamed of being raped
not normal -___-
Today in the post came my Chino figure from the anime 'is the order a rabbit?'
its the 7th one ive bidded on and eventually won!
This morning me and mum bathed millie and alice
we had the heating on and an extra fan heater for them
i kept fussing them and sat with them on my knee
dont think they appreciated it but i dont appreciate smelly pigs
once they had dried they had their christmas photo taken
it wasnt brilliant tho
alice just kept hiding behind the tinsel -___-
I was sewing the piggies up
and they are finished now!
i went for a cold walk with mum
i had yoga we did the usual 12 days of yoga routine she made up
tomorrow i am cleaning my room!
i may even do some baking as well :3
here's pinks
here christmas photo
shes cute right :D
still going strong!
