Didn't sleep great
but i put that down to not having the sheer amount of pain killers
i have been taking as of the last 3 days
as my god i ached and it was waking me up ><
this morning i felt a bit better about life
i mean i didnt want to go to work really
i think a part of me could have buried my head under the duvet for the day
but thats not solving anything and letting people down
myself included
so i pushed on and went to work
jack gave me hugs and stuff today
think hes missed me
well i guess its been over a week since we've spent any time together
and i didnt see him over the weekend
i didnt want to tell him what id been like over the weekend
as i dont know if its male bravado of wanted to be needed or him wanting to help
but id only get lectured about not calling him or telling him
and its done now and theres never anything anyone can do
you have to ride it out
so i kept quiet about the extent of the damage
i talked to Liv about it all as she has depression
and i told her that i hadnt told jack
and she just said the same thing as i think
theres nothing anyone can do you just have to ride it out
i fetched maggots
gross little things and i could smell em too
i was getting everything done
but i had so many demands made of me today
and then at 2pm so with 2hours to go i find out bacteria is needed for tomorrow....
apparently jack was told but i wasnt
and it hadnt been made and it is not a 2 minute job
i was stressing a bit as i didnt know what i was doing
the instructions might as well be written in chinese
and i had little time left + the other jobs that needed doing
but julia and jack helped me
we got there and was only a few minutes late
i felt anxious about coming home
just didnt want to fall into depression again
i told jack and he offered to have me over but i wasnt sure if it was his way of wanting to help or pitying me. besides i know he wanted to game tonight
so i told him id be fine
i got home
and surprise surprise i went to bed!
just knew i wouldnt see the evening through
had pizza when i got up
tomorrow
cant face tomorrow
got maggots and bacteria to sort
but on top of that a stupid introduction for new staff at the school...
ive been there 7 months
bit late?
julia is doing it along with a biology teacher whos been there since november
jack is hoping i can get out early as im only support staff so stuff isnt really needed for me
julia as she has children at the school, i will understand if she wants to do the whole day
as for me id rather support jack
theres free lunch but im taking my own i cant be doing with the stress of that
Millie had the vets today
to check why she has fur missing
the vet suspects molly has been pulling it out...
so were keeping an eye on em
but glad she doesnt need treatment
i cant remember if i showed last week's nail
but i had a lot of compliments
speaking of compliments
jack said hes getting fed up of being told how cool Jo is XD
im just that amazing
he said "no one tells me how cool i am"
i said "thats cus youre not, youre not even in the same league as me"
a few teachers from work have even added me on facebook
even tho i dont use it XD
